Hi I'm really hoping someone can give me some help or an opinion.
I have four children, the youngest two are close together in age 17 months and 4 months so only 13 months between them.
I've been really struggling for the last couple of months and I'm starting to think I have pnd but how do I know for sure if it is?
I've made an appointment with my gp because I feel like I can't cope any more. I feel like things have become so bad and I just can't carry on like this these are some of the things I've been feeling and I've never felt like this before some of the things are really horrible please don't think badly of me.
I feel like I have this cloud over me, in the beginning there was the odd sunny day but now I feel like it's there all the time. I feel like I have a physical weight pressing down on my shoulders.
I never feel happy-I occasionally (usually when the kids do something) get a quick flash of happiness but it's gone as soon as it's there.
I feel my kids deserve better than me. I'm so grumpy with them they do fun stuff with daddy not with me.
I cry everyday and secretly in the night.
Every morning when I wake up I winder how the hell I'm going to get through another day.
I resent my dp who gets to go to work everyday will I'm at home with 3 under 4.
I feel like the biggest failure ever and my going to the gp feel like I'm such a crap parent. I'm so blessed to have four happy healthy children but I'm just miserable. I shouted so badly at dd1 this morning I feel so bad but I just lost my temper. I spent most of this morning in tears.
Does/has anyone else felt like this? Does it sound like pnd or am I just really shit at being a parent?
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Buttwing · 23/02/2015 13:54
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