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Antenatal/postnatal depression

I want to argue all the time

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sugarsinner · 20/02/2015 19:35

Please be nice.
I've had PND for the past 6 months and it has been pinpointed by a mental health nurse that it all probably started whilst I was pregnant.
I had a very difficult pregnancy which resulted in time off work, my boss was not empathetic as I increased his work load greatly. My colleagues then started acting differently too and a friend has confirmed that there was a lot of talking behind my back. I was alienated and I didnt stick up for myself, infact I became mute. I couldnt deal with confrontation and the pregnancy at the same time.
Anyway, I'm slowly recovering. But I feel angry to have been treated the way I was and I'm hunting out arguments. Today, I was walking my dog when a woman, very rudely, shouted at me to put my dog on a lead. He was being inquisitive but showed no signs of aggression towards her dog.

I told her to stop gobbing off and concentrate on her own dog (heaven knows where it came from)
She then threatened to attack me and rather than leave the situation well alone, I found myself goading her, I congratulated her on being such a classy lady. She told me to F### off. I laughed at her. She said she'd set her dog on mine. I said aggressive ey... like owner like dog.
I don't know what came over me but I enjoyed it, I almost wanted to drag the argument out. I never used to behave like this. I should have put my dog on a lead, regardless of how rude she was.
I find myself wanting to confront people all the time and wonder if it's a side effect of feeling so oppressed when I was pregnant. I fantasise about having huge bust ups with work colleagues when I go back to work. Luckily, I recently spoke to the chief exec about what happened and I have her full support when I go back to work. But I'm a bit worried about how I'll behave.
Anyone else just angry and out for an argument all the time?

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Gcalgske · 20/02/2015 23:37

First of all huge hugs. Yes I've felt that way. Not saying you do but I have post natal PTSD from a sh*tty birth and bad care afterward, also had a crap pregnancy. I think it's to do with wanting to reassert control and not be pushed aside any longer. Are you getting help with your anger? I was misdiagnosed as PND and they just tried to give me pills but once I got the PTSD diagnosis I've been seeing a brill psychologist who is really helping.
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sugarsinner · 22/02/2015 00:17

Thankyou, I'm having counselling so hoping to address the anger through this. Sounds like you've had a terrible time, hope you're starting to feel better. It's a long road but we'll get there.

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