Hi,
I'm 8 weeks 4 days and don't know how to cope. Does anybody else feel like this? Or has anybody experienced this and got through it?? I feel so alone and lost and terrified despite having a wonderful boyfriend who does everything to help.
This was planned but I didn't expect anything like this: I feel so so down and like I am stuck in a nightmare and nothing I do helps. I feel constantly sick, lightheaded, tired crying all the time and all food is repulsive! I'm wasting my life lying down all day (signed off sick for 2 weeks) and just want to feel like myself again. The only way of escape that comes to mind is having an abortion, which I don't want to do. I keep telling myself that it might get better in a few weeks but freak out incase it doesn't or incase it gets worse (depression and anxiety) and I know I literally couldn't live with it. By then I couldn't possibly have an abortion. I feel like I am in hell.
I have tried being positive and try and think positive things but can't shake this heavy foggy feeling in my head. I wake up every morning feeling like I don't want to be here. I have had a rough year (2 deaths of people very close to m me and moved into new house the month I got pregnant etc) and have previously experienced anxiety and depression throughout my life and don't know if this is just part of the hormones in the first trimester and it will go away eventually or if the hormones will increase and make it worse?
I also am extremely terrified of birth! The first week I found out I was pregnant I was kind of excited but now I feel absolutely nothing and try to feel excited and look to the future and think it's worth it for a baby but inside I don't truly feel that. How can wverything change in a couple of months? I was fine :(
So sorry for the negative post but I just want to be honest and hope that someone can relate and share some positive story or advice on how to cope??
Thanks
C
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Lost31 · 13/10/2014 15:58
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