I feel like I am a crashed computer. I have just stopped. Could cope until before Christmas and now I have just run out, no reserves left. DH goes back to work tomorrow and I am terrified of being alone with the kids (dd 3, ds 6mo).
Incapable of making decisions, in a mental fog, can't think, tearful, exhausted, have terrible thoughts about myself, crazy-lady mood swings, feelings of rage.
Snappy with poor DD, then guilty. In despair that am wasting mat leave which should be enjoying with beautiful children. Very afraid I have made wrong decisions of childcare.
Feel totally burningly humiliated by this. What's happened to me? Why can't I do it? Everyone else can.
Is this PND? What do I do now?
Thank you - sorry.
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Not coping, what do I do now? Is this PND?
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OhGood · 01/01/2014 11:11
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