Today my dd2 who is 7 months has cried the whole day. Nothing I did helped and it drove me to breaking point. I shouted and shushed her so badly she did the silent cry thing. My dd's cry at me all the time. I'm off citalopram now and am trying to give up bf to go on something a lot stronger (have to ask the doc ;) ) when did things get so bad?! My dh has taken over and said he is looking after the girls. When did I become such a shit mum and such a crap human being. I used to b fun and full of life, bubbly and energetic. I uses to have a great figure and always looked my best. Now I'm soft round the edges and have zero personality. I hate myself. Talking doesn't help it just makes me feel guilty.
I had PND with dd1 and missed so much until I stopped bf and now with dd2 hating every minute. My relationship has suffered so much that I'm not sure we will b together this time next week. I wouldn't be surprised if he has found someone else. I don't have much love for anything right now.
The only thing making me feel better is the two glasses of red wine I've had.
I'm sorry for the rant and I'm not sure what I'm asking for just needed to talk.
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Cupcakemummy85 · 26/09/2013 19:20
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