Name changed as I'm a bit of a coward. Will try not to ramble too much but apologize in advance if I do.
I'm 16weeks pregnant, found out at 11weeks through a routine blood test. Happy and shocked as was diagnosed with pcos and told would be hard to conceive. I had split up with my partner and moved out back home with parents a month before finding out.
I had my 12week scan and all is well, told family and close friends who were all supportive and happy. But started to dread people asking how excited I was, how I must be over the moon and all the other questions.
Since all this I moved again to a new area for a fresh start. Started to realize that I really wasn't happy at all, every time someone got excited about baby and about how pleased I must be, I honestly felt like crying and a total freak.
How come everyone else is so excited and I honestly feel like jumping off a bridge at the mere mention of anything baby related.
Felt like I was completely going off the rails and about to break down so managed to mustered up the courage to go to my new gp, who said I was suffering with Antenatal depression. I still haven't heard from new midwife after change over, so feeling quite lost in that respect.
Did a little looking and was told to go back and ask to be referred for counselling which I did today, hes going to look into whats available for me.
I guess I'm just looking to see if there's anyone else who's been through the same. Any websites, groups etc people could recommend? Did counselling help? I'm one of those people that keep everything bottled up, and the thought of having to physically tell someone how I feel scares me, especially as I feel so guilty for how I'm thinking.
Fed up of feeling like a total ogre, guilty of hiding being pregnant from half my friends because I can't deal with putting on a smiley face, and wondering if there really is light at the end of the tunnel.
Sorry again for rambling and thankyou
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