I'm new to this n iv probably put this in wrong part so sorry in advance..Iv recently had a new baby who I love and adore he makes me happy! But I am really down about my past th way Iv been brought up and treated by my parents.after many years ov fall outs then regaining contact.We had yet anuva row so I need to draw the line n say enuff,I have sed thus before but I always get deprest if I see them in th street ect...they r nt good for me I have a boyfriend who always there for me n he says I'm like a time bomb b I can b ok 4a wile then il go in a mood n take things out on him.I spoke to my hv and sh is going to keep in touch and talk about how to cope if u gt upset but will I ever be able to let go ov the past?
Yes, you will; there are plenty of Topics on Mumsnet where these issues - to do with toxic families - are discussed. For example, in Relationships; and in Mental Health. It's fantastic that you love and adore your baby, and that he makes you happy - congratulations!
If you click on the link above, it will take you to a very long-running thread about toxic families and how to survive them. It may seem a bit overwhelming to you if you are new to Mumsnet, but perhaps you could read a few bits of it?