I went to the doctor yesterday in floods of tears and said I thought I had PND and she has prescribed me citalopram. But I am really worried about taking it due to side effects and desperately wanting to feel myself.
I had a very difficult birth (3 days in labour ending in emergency c section) and most of the year I have been saying I don't identify with the whole 'bonding' with baby thing. And it was a HUGE adjustment because I used to travel all over the world for work. Have now been at home for 13 months.
We then moved to the country, which is beautiful but I don't know loads of people although it hasn't seemed to bother me. I also have a job starting in January for 3 days a week which I was really excited about. - although feeling flat at the moment
But this week I flipped out, after DS was sick for 5 days and husband away and I started feeling extreme rage and had to walk out of the room and let him cry a few times.
DH on leave for 3 weeks next week and then i start my new job. Wondering if I should wait and see if life returns to normal after starting a new job and getting some sleep, or just start the meds...
can't sleep because I can't stop thinking about what i should do
I've taken citalapram in the past, I feel marginally worse for a week or 2 and then they begin to work. My advice is to take them from what you are saying. I also struggled with the higher of taking them but they did help. It was put into perspective for me that had I broken my leg I wouldn't refuse treatment so why would I not take treatment for my head. Good luck x