I don't know if I have PND or if things are just hard and therefore getting on top of me. Dd is 6 weeks old and ds is nearly 4 years old. Dh has had very important exams going on and I don't have family nearby so I have largely had to do all the childcare for both of them on my own. I am exhausted physically and also emotionally and feeling so guilty for being such an awful mum. I love ds more than life itself but he is very lively and doesn't always do as he is told - like any 4 year old boy - and my patience is so thin. There is a difference between calmly disciplining your child when they need it and losing your rag, and I feel like I am doing a lot more of the latter. Dd is crying right now - I have put her in her moses basket and am just giving her a few minutes as I just need a break. The school run reduced me to tears this morning as we were running so late. Walking into school a bit too quickly I managed to pull ds over as he tripped on the curb. He didn't hurt himself but it was my fault for dragging him along.
I guess I am just posting this to let off steam. And because it's better than sitting here crying. Is anyone else struggling like this? I feel like it is just me doing a terrible job of being a mum.
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mummy2benji · 05/12/2012 09:29
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