Post natal depression after 1 year

[charleym]

I have a one year old baby and a four year old - things have always been fine, but over the last 4 or 5 months I have found that I am so tearful, extremely short tempered and stressing out about everything.
I love my children so so much, but when they whinge or wine I find myself shouting at them and can't stand the whinging.
Things seem much worse lately and sometimes I just wish I could be on my own.
My husband works long hours as we have our own business and I do the books and paperwork from home which adds to the stress of everything.
I feel terrible for shouting at my children as they mean everything to me and even as I write this I am sobbing my eyes out.
I feel so ashamed and pathetic for even feeling like this when I have been blessed with 2 beautiful children but don't know what to do

[whatinthewhatnow]

hi charley. so sorry to hear you're finding it hard. you're absolutely not alone, even though it feels like it sometimes. toddlers are hard work! a couple of things spring to mind - you sound like you're with them 247, or does the 4 year old go to nursery? If so, could you find childcare for the 1 year old even if it was only once a week? and use that time to appreciate being on your own, not working or anything? A break might help, if it's doable.

If you're feeling really awful please see the gp and get a referral to couselling or some kind of support, there's loads of help out there. and please don't feel guilty, it's obvious how much you love your children, and we all find it difficult at times. good luck xx

[trixieinfinity]

Hi Charley Definately go and have a chat to your GP it is not a failure or a weakness, it is an illness they can help you with. You need a little me time, if you can afford nursery it will give you a break, even if it is to do nothing. Is the business doing ok? If so could you get help with the accounts to give you the opportunity to do things for you.
Your children are important to you but there comes a time we all need to be an adult and not just a Mum.
Hope all goes well and keep us posted
S x