Hi Everyone,
I really hope I am posting in the right place, and that someone can help me. This is my second post so please be gentle.
I have twin daughters, who I love more than anything. The problem is I seem to be having some kind of depression about the way they were concived and what we went through to get them.
We tried for 6 1/2 years for them before I got pregnant, I went through 4 fertility treatments that failed and a failed adoption. I was very depressed in this period of my life. Then on our last attempt at ICSI we managed to have the girls.
The problem is even though after all this time yes I am a mummy, I still hate it that it didnt happen "the fun, normal way". Going through all that heartache really took its toll on us, and our relationship. And I hate people getting pregnant so easy, when I had all that invasive and awful treatment to go through! I am worried I sound crazy! I darent tell anyone, I wouldnt wish ivf on anyone but its like I am having some sort of post tramatic stress over all the failed attempts and the fact I missed out on TTC normally and finding out normally and it all being perfect!
I feel like I am going mad! I have heard of stories where mums feel they missed out on something regarding the birth if they ended up having a c-section. Well its like that but over the conception! And I have felt like this since they were born.
My sister has just announced she is pregnant, she has pcos like me and has been married less than a year. Whilst I am so excited to be getting a niece or nephew I cant help feeling jealous. Like I said I wouldnt wish ivf/fertility problems on anyone, but we got married in 2005 and its taken all this time to have our babies!! I just cant get my head around the fact we had to go through so much shit. And keep thinking, why me? what did I do wrong?
Is this PND? has anyone ever felt like this? I love my babies and sister lots, so why are these feelings happening? :( Should I tell my HV?
Thankyou for reading! Please help!
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Ilovemytwins · 12/06/2012 21:49
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