To think there is no point to life without children(55 Posts)
I have been having fertility treatment for 4 years. Yesterday we reached the end of this journey due to a deterioration in my own health. I just want to die. I can't see a future without children in it. The idea of any more Christmases without a child in it (always the hardest time of year), any more holidays, birthdays, family get togethers, feel like a stab through my heart. Who is going to remember me when I die? I can't imagine a way forward from this. Has anyone been affected by involuntary childlessness and survived? (Adoption, though I would love this, is ruled out due to my own health) , the dr yesterday said to me "you,ve come through worse and you,ll get through this" but I don't think I will this time. I had an abortion 14 years ago and the stupidity of this decisions (although it felt so justified at the time) kills me more.
Is there any pointe going on?
I am so sorry you feel this way. Get through the rest of the day a minute at a time. I'm sure someone will come along who has a fulfilled life even though they'd are involuntarily childless
Yes, there is a point in going on. But I know exactly how you feel. You are not as alone as you think. Hugs. x
There is every point to go on. I cant have children of my own. It has took me a long time to come to terms with it, but it does get easier, it honestly does.
I have stepchildren who are now all adults.. I have close friends whose children adore me as their godmother who has fun with them.
There is so much to life, that doesnt have to involve children.
I'm so sorry you are going through this. Just take the day one step at a time. Have a relax, you don't know what's around the corner. Maybe you could look at a surrogate?
You poor thing my heart is breaking for you reading your post.
In reality there is nothing I can say to make this easier for you right now, only time will do that.
I have had 6 failed Ivf myself I know the utter devastation it causes. To come to the end of the road and know there will be no more is heartbreaking.
In time you will think clearer. It's not the same I know but there is lots of ways you can have kids in your life, not the same as having your own I know but in time you have to replan your life. For now cry, hide away until you feel a little better.
Have you spoken to a few adoption agencies? You never know. My friend was turned down by 3 and accepted by the 4th with a ongoing health condition. I don't know your situation so it's hard to advice.
Just be kind to yourself, life is worth it and you can be a happy person without kids. You are strong to have come through all you have - you will get through this.
I'm so sorry to read what you're going through, it sounds utterly heartbreaking. I came on to this thread to say of course there is a point to life without children, but that's probably not appropriate now that I've read your OP. I wish you some happiness ahead.
Thank you for your lovely messages. I,ve just locked the doors today, I can't face anyone. I really appreciate the support.
There's a website called Gateway Women, I think, set up by a woman in similar circumstances to you, which might help?
keep the doors locked and stay inside until you feel ready to face the world. you have had a terrible shock and you are grieving for the life you cant now have. give yourself some time. ask family and friends for support. then when you feel ready start exploring other options that may be open to you. please, please be gentle on yourself. none of this is your fault.
You must mean the world to your partner and others
There are people in my life without children who have confided in me they would of loved to have their own. These people are very dear to my family. Not having children doesn't mean we love them any less.
Close the doors and the curtains and grieve.
You don't have to decide today, or this month, or this year what will give your life meaning - but there is one and one day you will fond it, I promise.
OP, I am 49 and was not able to have children after having cancer. Yes of course it's dreadful when you are where you now, but believe me when I say that a life without children can be rich, meaningful and full of joy.
My childless cousin died recently (he had cancer)- the chapel was PACKED full of his family, his friends, his colleagues, who all wanted to pay tribute to the most amazing man, who lived with courage, dignity and integrity, and put so much back even when he was dying. I can also point to my late 94 year old great aunt, loved and adored by family members, and a whole selection of friends, gay, straight, married, widowed, single - all without DC who live amazing lives full of laughter, friends, voluntary service, faith, animals, community service, employment, and fun.
Please let yourself grieve and then rebuild a life for yourself. Please feel free to PM if you wish. It will be different to what you wanted, maybe painful at times but can take you to some amazing places.
You need time to get over your feelings of loss, you sound like you are in a lot of pain at the moment. I wonder if your life has also been so focussed on the fertility journey that its hard for you to imagine that it could have any other purpose right now. Give yourself time and have some counselling if you need it.
Take time to grieve OP. Locking the doors and holing up for now sounds like a good plan. I'm so sorry about your very sad news.
When/if you feel like it, the Gateway Women forum is absolutely fab - full of women who wanted to be mothers but didn't/couldn't. They are all at various stages of healing and its an extremely supportive place. But take your time - do what you feel like doing for now. Keep posting if it helps
Take one day at time. Huge hugs.
Time will slowly heal this pain. Take as much of it as you need, and take care of yourself. YOU are a precious life too x
Lots of hugs. This sounds very hard.
Be assured that, even without children, you and your DH ARE a family. I hate the phrase "starting a family". For me and DH, we started our family on the day we got married, whether or not we would have children later on.
I really hope that there will be children in your life at some point. I know they won't be yours biologically but I am so grateful for the people who have taken me, and now my children, under their wings and been honorary grandmothers/fathers, aunts/uncles, big brothers/sister, godparents etc. In some cases, I have far better relationships with them than I do with my actual parents.
Locking the doors and hiding under the duvet sounds very normal and what's needed at the moment. Hope you and DH can be gentle with each other as you come to terms with it all.
I feel so sorry you are facing pain, do what you have to do for now, cry, hide away, eat, throw something, whatever you need to do. As others have said, some day soon you will find something that you feel gives your life meaning.
When you think of all the wonderful beautiful paintings, writing and music created that we all attach meaning to, that stays with us through generations, much of it was written by people who felt pain, faced terrific hurdles, and probably at the time felt no one much would remember them. Human beings, all and each and everyone are special and their lives have had meaning, yours has too even if it doesn't feel this way at the moment.
I've been having fertility treatment for a few years and at the beginning I felt exactly like you. Felt there was no point in anything and I felt angry all the time.
I'm still going through treatment but my outlook and quality of live has drastically improved. I'm lucky to have children I love very much in my family and siblings who allow me too play a huge part in their childrens lives.
I also appreciate my relationship with my husband a lot more than I used too.
I hope you can find a way to enjoy your life soon, it's a path that is so hard to travel. X
So sorry you feel this way OP, my heart goes out to you.
We went through years of infertility and many failed IVF attempts before we were blessed. I can remember feeling that my life would be pointless without DC and felt that I wouldn't want to be here if I couldn't have a child. My best friend in the world is unable to have children and it took her a long time to come to terms with the fact that she would never become a Mum. She says the pain never leaves you but you learn to live with it and choose a different way of life.
Time, counselling and support from family and friends has helped my friend come to terms with it. She has compared it to the loss of her beloved Dad, in a way it is a loss and you need time to grieve.
I am truly sorry
Thank you all, your words have made me cry but in a nice way. I also found the gateway women website thanks to the recommendations here - I'm not at a stage yet where I can read it all but even the first page, about still counting, still mattering and still rocking made me smile.
About three hours ago my life was very very dark - thank you all for being a candle in a real crisis point. It's not over (not by a long way) but I'm starting to feel like I can breathe a bit again.
I'm so sorry, I can only imagine the pain you're feeling. I agree that you and your DH ARE a family. I hope you can work through this together.
Sending you my thoughts. You sound like a lovely person and I'm sure you are someone who means a great deal to a lot of people.
"but believe me when I say that a life without children can be rich, meaningful and full of joy."
^^ This is so true.
When I was still in my 20s I was told that I couldn't have children. I decided that life was too short to spend it feeling disappointed and that I had missed out. It is so destructive and pointless. So I seized the opportunity to do things I couldn't have done if I had had children.
I did finally get pregnant at 41 and have a beautiful daughter. I hear you say "but it's alright for you".
I can assure you that having children is a wonderful thing, but it has caused me so much worry and heartbreak along the way. My life has changed since DD was born, but it isn't better just different.
If you spend your life dwelling on what might have been then you will end up in a downward spiral. Having children isn't the be all and end all of living. It is just one aspect of life.
I am so sorry that you feel this way. Is there any way that you can come to terms with it by seeking professional help?
Lots of hugs and kisses. I am so sorry. I have no idea what to say, BUT ... (and please no one shoot me for this). THIS IS MY STORY & MY FEELINGS - WE ALL FEEL DIFFERENTLY. Sometimes we want things we can't have. I never wanted a child (had an abortion age 21 - no regrets). Then mid 30s I really did want a child with my husband. Everywhere I looked everyone was pregnant or had a pushchair. I couldn't get pregnant. My sisters couldn't get pregnant. It was unfair and horrible. I tried IVF, I was very lucky it worked. Have one DC. 2nd attempt failed. Love him to pieces - he is the light of my life. However, I do sometimes get jealous of my sisters (who can jet about all over the place as and when they feel like it with their partners). They probably gets jealous of me sometimes too I expect. Children are hard work (and perhaps as I was older - mid 30s - when I had DC) - I do sometimes long for the days before DC when I could do what I wanted when I wanted and not worry so much. I worry constantly about DC and although I could never be without him now I have him, I do wonder why we have children in this day and age. I am worried about him having friends, what he'll see on the computer, how he'll grow up. It's a never ending worry (perhaps that's just me). My sisters have thanked me for my honesty about this (they say everyone with children usually says how lovely it is, or never tells it how it is). We all obviously have different stories to tell as we all have different personalities, different lives and are individual people and cope with life in our own ways.
I would probably have been exactly as you are if my IVF attempt failed. I just don't know. Hindsight/foresight are wonderful things. You say you can't adopt, but perhaps you could consider fostering, becoming a childminder? I know that's not the same as having your own child, but it would give you perhaps a little of both worlds. I know I'm not helping, or wording this right, but however much you want a child, at the end of the day you still need to be you and love yourself. Children will eventually get up and go - you still need your own life and to be happy with that. Sending lots of love and hugs and cuddles your way.
I hope this is OK. Please no one be mean to me. I've probably said this all wrong.xxx
I read this thread and was dithering about whether to post and get flamed for saying 'look, having children really isn't the be all and end all'.
Bunbaker and MrsChick put it so much more eloquently than I could.
I never wanted children and don't particularly like most kids tbh. I love DD deeply and would die for her, but that doesn't mean that there haven't been times when I've despaired, been deeply depressed and totally fed up with parenting: the relentlessness, the worry, the constant inane chatter and ceaseless demands, the noise, the repetitive drudgery of it. There are good bits as well, obviously. Desperately wanting children doesn't make you immune to all that either - I have friends who tried for years and underwent IVF, who still both found it very hard being a parent.
There's no guarantee that you'll end up with the Disney family either. My older sister has been estranged from me and my parents for many years. I very much doubt that she even knows that my father is dead, let alone mourns him. My grandmother was just barely reconciled with my mother by the time she died, too. I sound very negative but I'm just trying to make the point that there are no guaranteed happy endings in life, family or no family.
I think that what you do in life is far more important; the kindnesses, the experiences, the people whose lives you touch and whom you love and love you back. That doesn't have to involve children, although it does for many people. I'm sure this feels like the end now, but it's really not - it's just the start of a new chapter.
Hope I haven't been too blunt.
Lovely posts you two :-) I work with parents and from the outside it doesn't look anything like as good as its cracked up to be. There's huge pressure on people to have that 'Disney family' and to love every second of parenthood and of course nothing in life is wonderful all the time.
That's not to say that the longing for a baby is trivial or silly - I have felt it myself and it is so painful. You have every right to feel bereft OP. I can't recommend Gateway Women enough but you will come to it in your own time. I'm glad this thread has been helpful to you
I left school 28 years ago and not a day has gone by since then that I haven't thought with much love and gratitude of my wonderful headmistress. She had no children of her own, but she mothered us so well. I've been 'mothered' by other wonderful women too and I really love them so much, just as much as family members, possibly more tbh. This isn't meant to diminish your grief, and I'm so sorry for the pain you're feeling. Sending every good wish for finding happiness and richness. It sounds as if you have so much to give xxx
YABU. Your life is important and there are lots of ways a person can be, and are, remembered other than through their own children. You could be that fantastic aunty, the kind neighbour, the lady who helps tutor kids from church etc.
Sympethy to you OP
I know its not the same but when I had my first mc, I felt so angry at everybody around me having children, and everyday just seemed so pointless and life was just relentless. I can't offer any real advice as I couldn't pull myself out of it until I finally got pregnant (after another mc)
I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in feeling this way. If it helps at all I have a beautiful Dd and another one on the way, yet I still find life an uphill struggle most of the time. Having children might not necessary fill the hole.
I hope you manage to find comfort Xx
Once again, I do have 2 girls but I think I have some understanding and I know it's a very dark place.
DH and I always wanted a big family but found ourselves unable to have more for some unexplained reason. After 8 years of trying we went to the gps only to be told we could not get any help because we were not childless. By then the girls were stroppy teens, I was really struggling terribly, depressed, could see no future like you, and it felt as though my plan for my life had completely collapsed. We in the end put as much money as we could on the mortgage and went for private ivf. I fell pregnant - and lost the baby at with a missed miscarriage at 10 weeks. We had no way of affording to do it again and in any case I was such an emotional wreck I could not have handled any more anyway. The stress brought DH and I to the brink of separation and like you I felt my life was over. Don't hate me for this but I even thought people with no children at all were better off because at least they could get some free treatment instead of bankrupting themselves for nothing and at least they had compensations we didn't have such as a nice childfree lifestyle with money and holidays. (We all see things our way when really at that rock bottom ) Secondary infertility can be a friendless place because people with children can't grasp why you want more (!) and people without can't grasp why you are so upset when you have DCs.
That was 4 years ago and its been a hard road. However, it does get better. I really really wish I had enjoyed what I had more instead of loving for this hypothetical perfect life. Our girls are almost grown up now 18 and 15 - you don't have them for long - and I agreed all those years not appreciating what I had. I'm finally enjoying my trends properly and also my nephew instead of chasing after what might have been.
I will always be sad at what happened b but I've started to see the positives. DH and I can go out again on our own and recently had a lovely short break away together. I've started appreciating him in ways I haven't for years. I can now look forward to us growing old together, to holidays and free time we would never have had if I now had a 3 year old. Children are wonderful but they impact on your life in more ways than you can possibly imagine. They drain every once off your finances, emotions and spare time. I'm rather liking getting some of that back. In one way, once I'd got over the worst of the grief (which took at least until the baby would have been born and then some - along with shed loads of antidepressants) it was a relief to know we'd come to the end of the road with the TTC and had to move on.
We considered fostering and may still do it one day. The hoops are less than adopting in health and age terms, I believe.
However, what I did do was eventually take on two very damaged rescue dogs and a puppy. That's been all consuming hard work and given me an outlet similar to children (stuff to buy foot them, classes to take them to, the reward of watching them develop, a network of like mine people). I intend to foster for the Desire organisation when finances allow. Now you may not be an animal person, but there is always something you can help to fill that gap with, in time.
You will get through it. Get some strong antidepressants if it helps to get you over the darkest days. I'm actually pretty happy nowadays - and you will be too eventually
Some of that is gobbledegook Stupid tablet!! It's almost impossible to edit on.
Where Desire organisation came from I've no idea - Rescue organisation!
I hope you can decipher it!
I hope the gist of it came over. You'll always have a sadness there in one way, but it will lessen, you will enjoy life again, and you will find your meaning. You may even end up doing wonderful things for people or animals in need that you could otherwise not have done. The world needs people like you, don't give up. Give it time and take care xx
I don't have any advice to give, but I didn't want to read and run. Life may seem very bleak at the moment, but remember behind the grey skies and rain clouds, there are blue skies and sunshine. Your life will go forward although down a different path than you planned. Take time for yourself and your DH to heal. xx
Well today is a new day and, if I don't think too deeply about it, I can breathe again and face the world. Thank you for the reminders that kids aren't easy, I seem to just think about all the nice bits instead of the relentless hard work! I do have a baby neice I adore and that my sister lets me 'share' - so I get the fun bits of taking her to baby classes etc. I also have 3 'Fur babies' who are literally keeping me going right now and being smothered in affection. I just feel like I,ve got sooo much love to give.
New plan (because I always need a plan ) is to see the positives. If I hadn't been going through the fertility treatment my decline in my health would never have been picked up so quickly (and it is a serious decline). The doctors are all on my side. They are going to try everything to reverse, or at least stabilise, this. I'm now determined to recover and recover well enough to adopt. I'm going to not let my thoughts drift to the what if's, because that will destroy me. And sometimes I will be sad, but I will get through it.
Thank you for sharing all your experiences - it's like a grief that you never imagine or know that so many are experiencing till you are in the situation yourself. X
I'm really sorry for your pain OP and don't mean to trivialise infertility at all as I know it can be heartbreaking BUT what I want to say is, it is very easy for the one thing you lack in life to become the focal point for all your unhappiness, and you can end up living an 'if only' life where 'if only' you had what you wanted you believe you'd be happy.
Not exactly the same, but not a million miles away either, for most of my 20s I was single and I had a bunch of friends who were all coupled up, so I really was the odd one out. Not a day went by when I felt hung up about it, and I felt that my life couldn't be happy because of this one thing I lacked - and I thought my life would be unimaginably wonderful if I had it. I eventually did meet a partner in my early 30s but guess what I'm not happy all the time now because it doesn't work like that.
So what I'm trying to say is, I would encourage you to learn to find value in your life independently of the one thing you think will give your life value. Otherwise you just end up in a downwards spiral and it's a big waste of this precious life you were given. Good luck in finding peace.
bounchingbell... You've made me cry... but I'm smiling! Glad you're feeling a bit perkier today. Keep positive. Good luck and keep strong with the health issues. And your 'Fur Babies' will always love you, never have tantrums and never leave home. Fur babies are the best (we have one too). xxxxxxx
Your new plan will be to build the best relationship with your husband.
Adoption is a long and very cruel road designed to push you to your absolute limits to make sure it is worth it. You need to rely on your husband at your weakest moments, and he will need your support to.
In the meantime (it could easily take 2 years from the start of the process to having a child live with you - so you can have a bit of spending to do first) spend some money on yourselves - have a holiday and enjoy each other.
Manchester aunt - I'm actually in awe of my DH's strength through all of this, if he has any disappointment about being childless, he doesn't show it, it's all concern about me. And you are right. I have two cousins - one is a single mum, one is childless but with a fabulous DP. I often used to say that the one I would rather be is the one with the partner, as children grow up but relationships are for life, (yes, I know kids are for life too but hopefully you know what I mean). we have been under huge pressure over the past few years but it IS time to focus on us again, we even used to have fun!!
He sounds wonderful! In time you will realise that you are so very lucky - although I realise life sucks at the minute.
Interesting question and I have some friends like you had abortions then suddenly they didnt seem to be in long term relationships and one thing lead to another and now I have two friends approaching 42, with no long term partner and no children.
I think they would dearly like dc but not desperately. My sister has just turned 50 and has been married for 20 years to a man who never wanted DC, and I see her looking at my dc sometimes and has also said - what's the point...her DH is very focused on work and building property portfolio for their retirement etc....
I think what I see now, with two dc when I look at my sister and her DH and my other friends is - immense freedom.
Until you have dc you dont realise how tied you are ( with limited funds of course) for instance my sister and her dc dont realise how much money they save not having dc...i would be using that money to do amazing things....like xmas, they dont go anywhere, I would be in a top hotel for the night....fly to paris for two days or prague...
If i was childless now, I would be expolroing and doing so much more...because I know appreciate freedom more...and its a gift, not the same as having children, but it is a gift to be free and able to go and do what you want....
You have to learn to accept your situation and think about it in a different way...
I have a granny who wasn't my granny by blood but was an amazing woman who was like a granny to me. We called her granny and she behaved like one. I loved her to bits and she was a real inspiration to me. She had no children of her own, but she still lived a very full life.
My godfather didn't have children. He has had the most amazing life. Fantastic holidays, opportunities, nice cars and lots and lots of fun. His Christmas letters are always full of the fun the year has brought, and he's spritely and still enjoying life in his retirement. This is not the end of everything, just the start of a different path.
bronya same here actully our dc godftaher has wonderful social life better than most friends, in his 60's and very much on party scene
So sorry that you have been feeling so sad. You are a special person in your own right with family and friends. Your DH values you.
I sometimes look at childless friends who have lovely holidays, focus on their career, and have time to bother about their appearance and feel jealous of my lost independence. There are a lot of different ways to be happy.
Sorry you are so sad.
You will need to wait 6months-1year after stopping fertility treatment before you can start the adoption process anyway. That gives you time to grieve the baby you won't have, and build up your strength both physically and mentally.
If your health does turn out to preclude you from adopting, you could consider fostering, or respite fostering (where e.g. you take a child in one weekend in 4 to give their carers a break).
Maybe we will see you over on the Adoptions board in the fullness of time?
I haven't been through infertility but I absolutely relate to what you say about how important children are to you. What I mean is that your feelings are totally normal and not unreasonable at all!
I'm glad to hear that you have hope for recovering enough to adopt. Just thinking out loud here and I know it is not a cheap option at all, but have you looked into international adoption? I know the restrictions vary a lot from country to country and I know people who have done it successfully after being messed around by the UK system for ages. Just a thought.
If it's any comfort... one of my relatives who I see 100% as helping 'form' me was neither a mother nor a grandmother but a childless aunt. I often remember her fondly and carry her legacy onward.
The act and skill of mothering doesn't always end up focused on a biological child but if they are there they will find a child or children to support one day.
A book I'd recommend:
OP, I have a friend in her 40s who hasn't had children. Diff reasons to you however, she just never found the right man and for her, that was the reason not to have them. She feels very sad about this and often wonders whether she should have made it happen another way. However, she is happy, she has a great life with much more freedom than her friends with children. She has more money, more time, a better social life and a better career than most of her friends with children. She can go away at the drop of a hat with friends or a boyfriend. Of course I realise that this means very little if you want children desperately, but I just wanted to point out the positives of not having children. There are positives of having children which you are well aware of and I wouldn't for a second want to diminish your desire for them, but I just wanted to point out an alternative. It's a different life, not necessarily a worse one. Myself, I have 2 young children who I love more than anything. However I have to admit that there are times when I think that this world is so over populated and is about to implode, is so full of crimes and terrible things that happen, that i wonder if I did the right thing in having children. I've brought them into a world of worry and sadness. I know that's real life and I wouldn't change anything now of course, but before I had them, I had no idea about how much I would worry about them and their futures. Before I had them, I thought a lot about my reasons for wanting them as I wanted to make sure it wasn't just selfishly wanting someone to look after me when I'm old etc. honestly, I never found a good logical reason to have them, I guess it was just instinct and human nature to want to reproduce. Maybe I'm over the top and I know I'm a worrier, so probably not a good representation of how people think, but sometimes I do think about these things. Having children is amazing, but it's not easy and it's far from carefree. I'm sure you are a fantastic person and someone who wants children as much as you do, probably gives a lot of love to a lot of people, and therefore gets it back, I'm sure an awful lot of people love you. You have support here xxx
Thank you all - I am a bit of a worrier and probably would struggle to let a child have freedom so maybe this is for the best. I will definately be buying the book someone linked too, once I'm ready to face facts.
There's been two quotes which have been going through my mind all day. One is from Maya Angelou saying "Surviving is important. Thriving is elegant." Maybe I won't just aim to survive this, maybe I,ll try and thrive in my 'new' life.
The other is one I read at the very start of our fertility journey, when we were considering going straight to adoption, and I've been reminded of it by all the stories on this thread about the fabulous women who have managed to influence lives, love and be loved, without being mothers. It's that "mother is a verb as well as a noun". Maybe I have got too much love for just one child, maybe my role IS to foster (and my own parents fostered as I was growing up so I have no idea why this didn't occur to me till someone here suggested it!) and love lots of kids, maybe there are other ways I can 'mother'. I'm almost excited by the idea.
Yesterday, i literally started this thread to stop me running away, just going in the car and driving and not stopping, I was THAT desperate. I'm soooo glad I didn't. I'm not naive enough to think there will be no more bad days, but hey, maybe even people who DO have kids have bad days too?!
Good for you bouncing. We should all aspire to elegance! xx
Hi bouncing, I don't really have any pearls of wisdom for you but just wanted to let you know you aren't alone in feeling like this. Your op nearly broke me heart. I know how you feel and I hope that helps a little bit. Xx
I've had two failed IVF attempts and I know how you feel, especially the worry about no one remembering you.
I'm very lucky in that most of my friends are child free by choice. There are so many things I do now that I couldn't without children.
We have just got a cat and she has been such a comfort to us.
Are you with us 'elderberry pavlovas' over on the conception boards? The ladies there have been such a support. It's wonderful when someone else knows what you are going through.
A few more inspirational women for you Belle
So this Mother’s Day, as we honor the millions of extraordinary, loving, committed mothers in the world, let's not forget the many fulfilled, successful women who opt not to become mothers, and who have nonetheless contributed enormous work to our culture and world. Check out these eight famous women who led and are leading big lives, without children:
1. Sally Ride
The first American woman and the first (known) LGBT person in space, Sally Ride had no children and pursued a vibrant scientific career. Prior to her first space mission in 1983 (she served on a second shuttle flight the following year), Ride beat 1,000 other applicants for the spot. She held bachelor’s degrees in physics and English, and a Ph.D. in physics, and directed the California Space Institute at the University of California, San Diego. Committed to expanding science education, Ride also wrote five children's science books and started her own company to inspire women and girls to pursue scientific careers.
2. Margaret Cho
Comedian Margaret Cho began performing stand-up at the age of 16 and soon won a contest to open for Jerry Seinfeld. In her twenties, she landed her own TV show, All American Girl; she's since produced critically acclaimed shows like I’m the One that I Want and Notorious C.H.O and snagged an Emmy nomination for her portrayal of Kim Jong Il on 30 Rock. Throughout her career, Cho has been active in anti-racism, anti-bullying, and anti-homophobia campaigns. On motherhood, she says: “I do not want children. When I see children, I feel nothing. I have no maternal instinct. I am barren. I ovulate sand.”
3. Harper Lee
She eschews interviews and almost anything connected to her 1960 Pulitzer Prize winning novel, To Kill a Mockingbird — but Lee made an indelible impact on American literature and the lives of millions. She never had children, and these days the 87-year-old stays active in her church and community in Monroeville, Alabama.
4. Oprah Winfrey
Since she landed her first television gig as a 19-year-old news anchor in Nashville, media giant Winfrey has built an empire. Her talk show was nationally syndicated for twenty-five years; she’s written five books; and she owns a television network — to name a few of her accomplishments. In 2007, she donated $40 million to start the Oprah Winfrey Leadership Academy for Girls in South Africa. “Some people ask me why I never had children,” she says. “Maybe this is the reason. So I can help bring up other peoples’ children.”
5. Anna Jarvis
Though she recognized the importance of a mother's role, the woman who founded Mother's Day had no children herself. Jarvis lobbied for the holiday to memorialize her own mother, a woman who nursed wounded Union and Confederate soldiers during the Civil War. Through letter-writing and promotional campaigns, Jarvis successfully got Congress to institute Mother's Day nationwide in 1914 — though she soon became embittered at its commercialization. Jarvis lamented, “A printed card means nothing except that you are too lazy to write to the woman who has done more for you than anyone in the world. And candy! You take a box to Mother — and then eat most of it yourself. A pretty sentiment.”
6. Sonia Sotomayor
Sotomayor, the first Latina and third female Supreme Court Justice, grew up in the tenements of the Bronx, graduated from Princeton and Yale Law School, and became a federal judge at the age of 38. In her memoir, My Beloved World, Sotomayor notes that a lifelong struggle with diabetes, and the fear of dying early, played a significant role in her decision not to have children.
7. Rachael Ray
Food Network mogul Ray has established herself as a powerful force in the cooking industry. With four Food Network shows — including her hit 30 Minute Meals — and more than 20 cookbooks to her name, Ray keeps active. “I work too much to be an appropriate parent,” she says. “I feel like a bad mom to my dog some days because I’m just not here enough. I just feel like I would do a bad job if I actually took the time to literally give birth to a kid right now and try and juggle everything I’m doing.”
8. Shirley Chisholm
The first black woman in Congress, Chisholm was a lifelong champion of minority education and employment. Before launching her political career, she earned a master’s in elementary education from Columbia University, directed the Hamilton-Madison Child Care Center, and worked as a consultant with the New York City Bureau of Child Welfare. Chisholm became the first black woman to make a bid for president when she ran for the Democratic nomination in 1972. She served seven terms in Congress on the Education and Labor Committee, helped found the Congressional Black Caucus, and later taught at Mt. Holyoke College. Though her groundbreaking career made her a powerful figure in American political history, Chisholm once said in an interview that she didn't want to be remembered as the first black Congresswoman. "I'd like them to say that Shirley Chisholm had guts," she said. "That's how I'd like to be remembered."
Pnd after having DS nearly broke me. I thought I was in a nightmare, but just couldn't wake up. At times I still struggle, as DS can be a lot of work. I worry and feel massive guilt about everything. I'm not saying that I would rather be without him, but my mental and physical health have suffered. Our finances are also at breaking point, as DH still has to give up some of his working time to help me out with ds (he got very little work done during the first two years).
I have certainly long since given up on my plan of having 2 children. It is simply not going to work. Af times I mourn the loss of my hypothetical child. We all have regrets, as life us full of choices. I think the trick is to find a way to be happy regardless..
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