to not enrol ds in nursery because I have emetophobia

(69 Posts)
TeaCuresEverything Wed 15-May-13 21:26:04

please be gentle ladies, I know IABU but I can't help it.

I have emetophobia, which is a fear of vomit. its quite severe and it makes being a mum hard. I panic whenever ds looks peaky and if he is actually sick I barely hold myself together.

ds is 2.8yo and an only - mainly due to this phobia. he doesn't have any cousins so the only other children he mixes with are my friends children, though not very often.

I am going to see a nursery tomorrow with view to enrolling him there for 2 mornings a week. this is to give him a chance to mix with other children. I know he needs this, he is quite shy and reserved around other children at the moment.

but I am so scared of the thought of him picking up sick bugs from nursery. every one I speak to tells me to "prepare myself" for it. I don't want to let this phobia hold my lovely ds back. its the bane of my life. I've tried many different therapies to beat it, to no avail.

is anyone else in a similar situation? or has any coping techniques for me?

squeakytoy Wed 15-May-13 21:29:01

Sorry but I think you do have to try and face this head on.. it really isnt something you can avoid, and not fair on your child to exclude him on that basis either.

Have you tried hypnotherapy?

My child has never had a sickness bug caught from nursery, and he goes to 2 different ones.

I don't think ds has ever got a sick bug from nursery. Chickenpox, various cold bugs but no sick bugs. He has only been sick about 5 times in his life though and he's 3.5 so maybe we've just been lucky in that respect?
I don't really have advice as I don't have that phobia but there's a possibility he won't catch sickness bugs. How is his health generally? I think nursery has been quite good for ds immune system, he's rarely ill. I'm sure someone will be along with better advice for you.

Littlefish Wed 15-May-13 21:30:33

I agree that you need to look at treatment for yourself. Even if you decide not to send him to nursery, what are you going to do when he reaches school age?

WilsonFrickett Wed 15-May-13 21:31:03

Oh bless you. I don't have any coping strategies, other than to say that if he doesn't mix with other children now, all you'll do is postpone the inevitable to when he starts school. They all go through a phase of picking up bugs and it's usually when they start to 'mix'.

That said, my DS is 7 and I can probably count on the fingers of one hand the number of times he has been sick. He tends to catch coughs and colds, but not sick bugs. So it may not be as bad as you think.

You are doing the right thing for your DS.

TeaCuresEverything Wed 15-May-13 21:31:46

yes, hypnotherapy, cbt, exposure, everything . . I have improved in that I no longer fear being sick myself but I'm no better when it comes to others being ill, especially ds as I come into such close contact with it when he is ill.

LeaveTheBastid Wed 15-May-13 21:31:57

He will get more colds, viral infections and similar than he will vomiting bugs. Parents tend not to send children in if they're vomiting, but will if they have a snotty nose. DD hasn't yet had a vomiting bug from nursery, but is currently off with chickenpox.

No suggestions for you, sounds awful if it is that extreme and therapy hasn't worked. Hopefully someone will be along who is more help!

FreshLeticia Wed 15-May-13 21:32:39

he is going to get the bugs when he starts school anyway tbh.
Is there any way you can get some decent therapy to help you cope? I think coping strategies would be really helpful. Perhaps you could do this during some of the time he is at nursery. At least we are hitting the summer now <hopefully> so there shouldn't be any nasties until next Autumn, which would give you time to prepare yourself.
I know it's not easy to deal with, but start now and hopefully you will overcome it smile

What squeakytoy said. It's really not fair on your DC to let your phobias curtail his life. If you don't let him go to nursery, the potential vomiting will be an issue at school. I know it's hard, but you can't keep him isolated due to your fears. Are you getting help with your phobia?

juneau Wed 15-May-13 21:33:35

I think my DS had one sick bug from nursery in three years! Coughs, colds and fevers - yes, loads of those. Your little boy is going to go to school when he's 4, so he's going to be exposed to other DC and AFAIK it's actually better to expose them to things as they build up a stronger immune system and actually get less ill, in the long run.

squeakytoy Wed 15-May-13 21:33:54

If its any consolation, I have never had a vomiting bug in my life and am 43 now. I put it down to a childhood of exposure to every bug going, a healthy interest in being covered in dirt most of the time, and a very unsterile environment, which led to a robust immune system.

No sick-bugs from nursery here either, but as QuietNinja says, plenty of snotty noses and chickenpox. DD is 6 now and I can't remember the last time she vomited. Do you think the friend that warned you perhaps mentioned 'sickness' as a more general poorliness thing and you interpreted it as 'vomiting'?

Kiriwawa Wed 15-May-13 21:34:47

my DS has been in childcare since he was a baby and he's only been sick once in 6 years. Its not inevitable smile

Good luck with it - you have my sympathy

FannyBazaar Wed 15-May-13 21:34:49

Has your DS actually been sick? Not all children get vomitting bugs, if they're going to get them, they can pick them up anywhere.

Scruffey Wed 15-May-13 21:35:32

My ds never got a vomiting bug from nursery. He did from school though. I think the pros outweigh the cons re him going to nursery.

CrazyOldCatLady Wed 15-May-13 21:36:15

I'm emetophobic too, so I understand how you feel. My two kids are in creche and they really do get far more colds and infections than vomiting bugs - I think we've had two vomiting bugs in two and a half years.

Is your DS's dad around? When our two are vomiting DH tends to deal with them, because he understands how I feel about it, and it makes a huge difference to my sanity peace of mind.

Saski Wed 15-May-13 21:36:57

TeaCuresEverything - I have a moderate case of this.

Is your husband supportive? I find that having someone who doesn't mock me & who is offers to run interference allows me to become involved a bit more with each sickness episode, in a way that is not forced on me.

I've found that with each bout, I come out a wee bit stronger. Good luck. PM me if you like. X

Springforward Wed 15-May-13 21:37:03

If he doesn't pick up bugs in nursery, he will when he starts school, unfortunately.

Have you spoken to your GP about getting some help with your phobia?

TeaCuresEverything Wed 15-May-13 21:37:19

thank you , your comments are really
helpful. sadly the hospital say there's nothing more they can do for me as I've tried everything there is. I am definitely better than I was, even a year ago I was too scared to let him see other children, now I know he needs to. my greatest fear of all is that he will also develop this phobia as a learned behaviour. I hope I can be strong if it does happen.

Saski Wed 15-May-13 21:38:41

Here's my other bit of advice; when my kids are ill in a non-vomiting way i.e. up all night with ear infections, I do everything. This makes me feel less guilty about detaching when vomiting is involved.

TigerseyeMum Wed 15-May-13 21:39:04

I am emetophobic. You have my sympathy. But. You said in one sentence that no therapy had worked. Then you said in another that CBT had helped because you were now sold to cope with yourself being I'll, just not others.

Therefore you may find it beneficial to return to therapy at this point in time for more work on your phobia.

Think of it like a staircase - you can't jump from the bottom to the top, but in one bout of therapy you may be able to climb half way up. With another bout of therapy you may get from half way up to the top.

Please try it, if your child is under 2 under NHS guidelines you should get prioritised and be seen (slightly) quicker.

pigletmania Wed 15-May-13 21:39:41

Yes it is a grat idea to send your ds into nursery, he needs that social interaction with other children. What are you going to do once he goes to school and he will legally have to go. You cannot te phobia ruin yur ds life, you need to continue the therapies

TigerseyeMum Wed 15-May-13 21:39:54

Able, not sold. Sold doesn't make sense, no idea where it came from.

TeaCuresEverything Wed 15-May-13 21:40:36

I do have a dh and he tries to be understanding. he will look after him if he is ill. he gets frustrated though! annoyed, and I can understand that.

Saski Wed 15-May-13 21:40:49

Honestly, it will get easier. The ugly truth is that you will be exposed to vomiting quite a lot as a mother and unlike other phobias (like spiders, for example) - you'll feel compelled to intervene and with each intervention, you will become stronger. I promise.

Badvoc Wed 15-May-13 21:40:59

Tea...check out the "thrive - cure your emetophobia handbook" by rob Kelly.
I got mine from amazon.
I am working through it ATM.

MrsWolowitz Wed 15-May-13 21:42:42

Bless you.

I have a phobia. I've tried hypnotherapy and CBT but it still ruins my life so I understand how debilitating phobias are.

You know you are being unreasonable but I fully understand why. You just need to let him go. If its any help, my DC have never caught a vomiting bug from playschool.

CloudsAndTrees Wed 15-May-13 21:43:35

He might not get a sick bug from either school or nursery, but if you don't face the fear now, you will end up feeling exactly the same when he has to start school anyway.

Living with the fear of having to face the thing you are phobic against can be as bad as having a phobic reaction to the thing itself, so you might find that if you learn to live with your ds going to nursery, then this will help you for when he goes to school.

Phobias cannot always be cured, but you can learn to live with it in a way that doesn't hold your life back. My DH began conquering a phobia that had affected his whole life when he was 40. A few years down the line, the phobia hasn't gone, but it is no longer a major feature in his life, and it no longer something that stops him doing things like it used to.

TeaCuresEverything Wed 15-May-13 21:44:04

I do refuse to let the phobia ruin ds's life, as it has blighted mine. my grandma had this phobia, which is where it comes from in me. I will enrol ds in nursery tomorrow, because its what's best for him and that's all I want. thank you so much everyone. I feel happier x smile

TeaCuresEverything Wed 15-May-13 21:45:54

badvoc thanks for link I will buy that

pigletmania Wed 15-May-13 21:46:57

That's good tea, you do need to continue the CbT

shewhowines Wed 15-May-13 21:52:26

My dc are rarely sick when they are ill? They have cast iron stomachs. On the other hand, every slight bug my friends children catch, goes straight to their stomach, so it does depend on the child.

CBt has worked - you have improved. Keep at it and you may improve more.

You know you are doing the right thing for your son. Well done. Be proud of yourself for coming this far.

BabsCholmondeley Wed 15-May-13 22:10:38

Hi tea

I'm an emetophobe too, and have put off nursery for ds2 partly due to fear of him catching d and v bugs, and partly because I just don't see nursery as being that important and beneficial right now (he's 3and a bit)

Ds1 went to nursery aged 3, 2 afternoons a week, never got a bug there, BUT hated it. I felt I had to send him as lots of people told me he needed socialising. If I knew then what I know now, I would have taken him out and let him potter about with me and see little friends regularly until school. If anything, nursery made him more introverted. He is now very confident and happy, despite being v shy when little. So I guess I wouldn't worry too much if you decide not to send him. I refuse to get hung up on or buy into the idea that 3 year olds HAVE to go to nursery or that they need it or you are somehow doing something wrong. Ds2 and 3 (aged 3 and 2) mix fine with little friends
and adults alike, and are doing just fine without nursery. As long as they have a few pals I just don't see the big deal. Sure I'm in the minority but happy with my choice.

ChangeNameToday Wed 15-May-13 22:22:40

If its any comfort, I waited till 3 to send DS and he hasn't caught any bugs at all - certainly no d&v style things. There might have been the odd sniffle but nothing worth speaking of.

I think you either have a sicky child or you don't. Growing up I and my siblings caught every cold going but never sickness things. Fingers crossed you get one like that!

WillowKnicks Wed 15-May-13 22:30:00

I have emetophobia. I have no advise, whatsoever but just wanted to say you have my utmost sympathy!!

I have 3 dc, all who attended nursery & probably could count on one hand the number of times they caught sick bugs there...but that's not the point, it's the FEAR of it, that's the killer!!

Think I'll head over to Amazon & check out that book grin

RubyrooUK Wed 15-May-13 22:42:38

I have emetophobia too and fully appreciate how stressful you find the thought of your DS getting sick from nursery.

But my DS has brought home two sickness bugs in two years and neither has been long lasting. (Although I have found them awful.)

In my heart, I believe small children are diseased vermin who will pass on bugs. grin In my head, I know this is all normal and the problem lies with me.

So I've just bought some anti-viral handgel recommended on the emetophobic thread on Mumsnet. Hoping that will fix everything! smile

Dancergirl Wed 15-May-13 22:52:16

Another emetophobic here too. OP, I think some children are more susceptible to sickness bugs than others, hopefully your ds will be ok. Good hand washing hygiene is v important in preventing it but I'm sure you know that.

badvoc that book has great reviews on amazon, I'm trying to decide whether to buy it. I've suffered for years.

Decoy Wed 15-May-13 22:55:57

Glad you've decided to go for the nursery and are happier with the choice now. It must be horrible for you to have emetophobia.

I'm also emetophobic and I completely understand why you're worried.

My DS is 4 and due to start school in September. He's attended a playgroup for a couple of mornings a week since he was 2. Every time I collected him I convinced myself he'll have picked up a D&V bug. Reality is it's happened 3 times in 2.5 years. I can't even hand on heart say that's where he picked it up as we'd been out and about to other places also.
I also have 1 year old DD. It was when I started panicking about her too I realised I couldn't carry on feeling so miserable about something I have no control over.

I've just finished 6 months of CBT and although I still have the anxiety and the panicky feelings they're not as intense and I have more confidence in my ability to cope. Maybe you could go back to your GP and ask for a referral for further CBT? I was told that I could be referred again if I felt I had relapsed.

missingmumxox Thu 16-May-13 00:11:14

I have this as well, as did my dad, my little Brother was the vomit child from hell, which didn't help.
When I have a vomiting bug I think I will myself not to be sick as I am so bad about it.
I haven't had any therapy and to be frank never occurred to me as it is an extreme of a normal curve as in it is a normal not to like vomit.
My Dad was a ambulance man in the days when they where all men, my Dad would drive if the patient was vomiting.
I became a nurse and you can't become the driver with that! I thought it might be an issue but found I could put a work head on, me but not me, I would stand, vomit bowl in hand, rubbing the patients back, smiling, and reassuring them that they didn't need to apologise, "people always apologise when being sick, I think my empathy over rode the phobia?" then go out to the sluice and have a minor fight back a vomit fest and melt down of my own! after 3 years of training I had less of the melt downs to almost none but still the retching in the sluice.
I can deal with my children when sick, not easy but I can morph into Nurse me in those instances...but friends, other relations your on your own, I am not to be seen.
you will manage, you love your child and hopefully you have a partner who understands your issue, my Dh tends to have to be first on call for this, but is away a lot, I cope, I find their distress over rides mine iyswim.
if you can't do it, don't beat yourself up, you just need to work round it.

PS remove all soft toys, they are the worst...really the worst. I am retching writing this.

MoistPlinth Thu 16-May-13 02:42:18

I'm asking purely out of curiosity and feel free to dismiss me as being rude...what makes you afraid of people being sick? Is it just an irrational anxiety?
I have an anxiety disorder myself so empathise completely. Just curious about how certain phobias work smile

quesadilla Thu 16-May-13 06:10:28

OP just wanted to say I used to have very severe emetophobia which is now much much better (to the point that dd has vomited in my bed and I have dealt with it which I feared couldn't happen.) Have you successfully managed to deal with any vomit episodes on your own at all? What happens when your DS is sick?

quesadilla Thu 16-May-13 06:15:26

MoistPlinth can't speak for OP but in my case it was just an abject terror of being sick. It dominated my life for years to the point where I went to literally any length possible to avoid anything which might make me vomit. I avoided any food which I thought would upset my stomach and carried a bottle of antacid with me everywhere.) if I saw or heard someone vomit it would make me sweat and shake. It's now almost disappeared, I have to say I'm still not crazy about it but can deal with it..

CinnabarRed Thu 16-May-13 06:27:14

I think you're marvellous OP - really good, brave decision. smile

FWIW, I'm not phobic of vomit but have the usual healthy dislike of it to the point that I find it very hard being around sick adults (and especially drunks). But I have found each of my children much easier to deal with once they reached roughly 3 and could aim for a bowl/toilet when the worst happens. I hope you find the same - yours is so nearly at that stage!

livinginwonderland Thu 16-May-13 07:47:36

Enroll him, and try and get some help for yourself. Could you maybe get some hypnotherapy or some help from your GP?

TeaCuresEverything Thu 16-May-13 07:50:39

Oh wow, such lovely kind responses. Its great to feel like I'm not alone in feeling like this.

moistplinth why do I have this phobia? to be honest I've had it so long I don't even remember. My granny had it when I was a child. We were never allowed to stay overnight at grannys in case one of us were sick. Thats my earliest memory of it. Then I had a very bad experience when I was 7, my auntie had driven me and my brother to Hastings for a day out and I was sick and felt dreadful and my auntie shouted at me and told me I'd ruined the whole day, I still remember how fast my heart was beating. Its a combination of things really. I'm also something of a control freak. I don't like being out of control and I don't like 'sudden' things happening. Last time ds was sick, which was in Nov last year, it was so sudden - he went to bed completely fine, then woke up at 3am crying, I went in and there was sick everywhere, it was such a shock. I worry every night that it will happen again. 3 days later I had d&v myself but I coped ok, because I had that element of control which I don't have when its others.

Nursery appt is at 10.30, I'll let you know how it goes. Again, I thank you, each and every one of you, for taking the time to respond to me. It helps more than you can imagine thanks

Badvoc Thu 16-May-13 07:54:32

I am working through it ATM and its really eye opening.
Still a way to go, but I feel optimistic smile

duende Thu 16-May-13 07:55:04

Good luck with your appointment. Similar experience here to others -DS started nursery when he was 1year old, he will be 4 in August and during this time he had the sickness bug once. Not even sure whether he caught it at nursery or somewhere else.
Good luck, I hope it improves for you.

Midlifecrisisarefun Thu 16-May-13 07:59:42

I too suffer from this, my dc learnt very early on that if they were sick they needed to be sick down the loo!
DH would deal with vomit, I dealt with poo!
Although DS2 still remembers having to clean the car himself aged 4 after he was sick in the back! DH was away at the time and I couldn't go near the car! blush
Unfortunately you can't avoid it totally by virtue of having children but you need to develop a few strategies to deal with it.
Even writing about it makes me shudder!
Good luck with the nursery!

coldwater Thu 16-May-13 08:00:38

Hi. I'm a fellow emet sufferer. I send my children to school but the whole time they are there i am worried they'll catch a sick bug. Every noise during the night and i'm straight up thinking one of them is sick. I dread them telling me one of their classmates has been sick because i know the chances of them catching it are higher. sad

I feed my kids a good diet, fresh juice and vitamins to keep them as healthy as i can. I spray their hands before and after school with an anti-viral spray i bought from Boots and hope for the best. I've also put in a hand gel in their lunch bags so they can use it after washing their hands but before they touch their food. The other parents look at me in the playground like hmm but who cares, it makes me feel better doing what i do.

Badvoc Thu 16-May-13 08:01:44

Tea...most emetophobes have someone in their life as a child was also an emetophobe.
It is actually learned behaviour and thinking patterns.
Your aunt was very cruel to you...that was probably your trigger.
Imagine shouting at a child because they are ill!? sad

Steala Thu 16-May-13 08:27:32

I have this too and have had two different types of therapy. I'm not cured but it dominates my life less than it did. The reason for this is that the therapist encouraged me to let go of the avoidance techniques and I had hundreds of them.

So, now, when DH gets up in the night, I don't ask him if he's going to be sick. When I go to a new place I now don't instantly check where the loos are so I'm not blocking anyone's escape route, should they need to be sick. If I get on a train I now don't scan every passenger to avoid those that potentially look sick. I now don't avoid cinemas, swimming pools etc. I no longer ask sympathetic friends to vet films for sick scenes before I see them. There is nothing on earth that would get me on a late bus on a Friday or Saturday though!

I was so scared to let go of all the avoidance strategies. I felt they gave me control. The therapist explained that I can't control it. It did still occasionally happen despite my best efforts. What the avoidance strategies were doing were building up the preoccupation. Instead, if faced with danger, I should acknowledge that it will happen and will be horrible but that I will cope.

I now feel lighter and happier, more free to do the things I want to do. It's still a phobia (I had a nightmare last night) but it is not the only factor on which I make decisions any more and it was before. You sound as though you are where I am a couple of years ago. If you choose not to put your son into nursery, I absolutely understand why. Having improved a lot myself, though, I don't think it will help you in the long run. It's an avoidance strategy. It won't control it but you will build it up in your mind as another thing you have to do to feel safe.

Good luck with your decision. Emetophobia is so poorly understood simply because no one likes sick. It's a phobia when it dominates your every move and I know it can take over your whole life if you let it.

mrsjay Thu 16-May-13 08:32:24

I think you are going to have to just go with it having a phobia like that must be horrible but you can't hold your child back because of it,

first nursery then school you can't keep him home forever because of your phobia but I guess you know that,
pre schoolers tend too IME get more colds that sickness bugs his nose will be forever running, and sickness bugs are really rare I think my dds have had about 6 in their school life and 1 of the dds has been left school for 2 years , send your boy and then try and not worry

peacefuloptimist Thu 16-May-13 08:34:36

Your post made me grin Midlife. My mum had this phobia too and I remember having to clean up my own as well as my siblings vomit off the floor quite often when we were children. As a consequence I now have no issues with people being Sick though do have natural revulsion and aversion to it. Mainly my dad dealt with us when we were sick but once we were old enough (lets say 5) we could be instructed from a distance. Hold on Op you just have to wait a few more years before you can hand your ds the mop andbucket and get him to tidy up himself.

BabsCholmondeley Thu 16-May-13 08:37:37

For anyone who doesn't know

Purrell Hand sanitising gel VF481 kills norovirus.

Lots of hand gels don't I found out recently.

It's very drying but it makes me feel much safer when we are out and about. I got it from amazon I think.

Saski Thu 16-May-13 09:13:05

I've read this is one of the most common phobias. Seems it is!

I find that I go into a kind of alternate state when one of my kids is sick (I restrict this to my kids because I would never, ever deal with anyone else's sick, ever). I'm kind of in the moment and I'm OK.

I can't deal with the anticipation. It absolutely kills me - the "mommy I have a really bad tummy ache" makes me absolutely not OK.

geeandfeesmum Thu 16-May-13 10:14:07

I have this too. I can't handle being sick myself or the children being sick. However, even if you don't send him to nursery, he will eventually go to school. The more you attempt to keep him away from bugs, the worse they will be when he does get them.

DH has to deal with all sickness issues in our house. Thankfully, he is wonderful and never complains.

Try looking into therapies etc. Good luck and hope all turns out well.

TeaCuresEverything Thu 16-May-13 14:35:47

just a quick update - went to see the nursery and ds fell in love with it, he was running around, touching the toys, touching the sand table, his little face was just shining. so I have enrolled him for 2 afternoons a week starting in a fortnight. ds cried when we had to leave! I promised him he could go back there. now just need to find the perfect Thomas the tank engine lunch box grin thanks again everyone x

CinnabarRed Thu 16-May-13 15:43:57

Lovely update - I'm so pleased for DS, and oddly proud (considering I don't know you) of you too.

WilsonFrickett Thu 16-May-13 18:13:19

Well done OP, I really mean that.

Oh, mum, I so so feel your pain on this - I have been exactly the same, to debilitating degree.. BUT I have truly found a thing that helps, really and properly:

I do courses through an organisation called Rigpa.

It trains you to step away from the anxiety. For me, CBT just reinforced the noisy anxious angry part of my mind and turned that negativity in on myself... Good luck, keep going, you're doing great. Hugs.

TeaCuresEverything Thu 16-May-13 21:21:48

Thankyou all so much smile accordiangirl I will look into that, thanks

skiesmylimit Thu 16-May-13 21:41:51

I'm an emataphobe, my ds had to go to a day nursery, he was always put straight into the bath as soon as we walked through the door. Wasn't allowed to touch anything. He was sick, often.

But now he's on pre-school he has been a hell of a lot better, I don't want to jinx it but not picked up a sickness bug from there yet. Even though many kids in his class did.

It really is inevitable, it does them so much good to go, what's a few days from a sickness bug to a well socialised happy child?

skiesmylimit Thu 16-May-13 21:45:12

Damn I really should read thread first

Hope you find it helpful - also recommended for everyone else. Seems there's a lot of us struggling with this!

LaGuardia Fri 17-May-13 17:47:59

You can catch a sickness bug from a supermarket trolley, a takeaway meal, a door handle, public transport, a petrol pump and inhaling infected droplets in the air, plus a million other things. I think nursery is the least of your worries. At least they wash hands there and keep sick children away.

LaGuardia Fri 17-May-13 17:51:27

p.s. norovirus mutates constantly. There is no hand gel or vaccine invented which kills the norovirus. WASH YOUR HANDS BECAUSE HAND GEL DOES NOT WORK ON NOROVIRUS.

appletarts Fri 17-May-13 20:04:21

I used to be very phobic but am a bit better now. I can't stand it when dcs vomit and it freaks me out that I will get it too and to make matters worse one kid is a pukey kid. I think this is something you just have to face as part of being a mum, nursery or not. You can't avoid it when they go to school. You mustn't let this run your life.

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