I'm too tired, angry and in the middle of bf to type in full sentances.
- month old baby
- 2.8 yo dd
- section and spd still recovering from
- history of pnd and pnp from having dd1
- nearly christmas
- first year away from my family, near to dps
- toddler christmas party this morning
- snow
- done all christmas shopping today as its tax credits day
- apt with mental health support nurse this pm - conducted with both children demanding attention
- had to bake mince pies as party tomorrow and dp moaned when I tried to buy ready made ones
- burned the tea, had to fob toddler off with cheese and pate on crackers. Toddler arsed about with said tea, at one point being caught about to spread pate on a cd.
- toddler and baby both go daft in the evenings
- dp rang to say he was having a quick pint at 4.30. arrived home at 8.
- went to make tea for dp and me, dp has put all the meat in the freezer without consulting me, or even informing me. Carefully laid out meal plans are thus useless.
- when dp told me this, I asked what he fancied instead and he started shouting that he is tired and was going to treat me to a takeaway but won't now.
- when I cried, he told me to take the baby and go to bed. I asked him to watch the baby while I have a bath to ease the pain in my pelvis. He snatched the baby and started banging about in the kitchen, muttering about how it was a mess (from baking). He was so aggressive that I took the baby back.
Please tell me it gets better. He tried to tell me to stop co-sleeping, which would mean me getting up and sitting up awake to feed the baby several times a night. How the hell I could do that when I am only just coping now I have no idea. I keep telling him to sleep on the bedsettee but he won't. I suspect because his computer is upstairs and he wants to play wow till the early hours.
GRRRRRRRR.