I found out today that I've failed my probationary period at work and won't be kept on. I was told it was because although I was good at the job and worked hard I didn't fit in to the team and struggled with the social side of things. Not those exact words obviously but that was the gist of it.
I have been crying and upset all afternoon because I feel like such a fuck up as this is not the first time this has happened to me. I'm only 27 years old but this marks the 4th probation period I've failed in 7 years (I didn't even get my first job until I was 20!) and it is always the same every time - "you work hard but you don't really fit in here."
But I don't understand it! I feel like there's something wrong with me and that there's something wrong with my brain and it doesn't work properly because I have no idea what you have to do in order to fit in with people or make friends.
I've never had any friends ever. I still live at home and have never left home before because I struggle to hold a job down and always struggle to get a full time one. I have never had a relationship. People call me weird because I'm so socially inept and say and do weird things and obsess about people and things. I also get distracted a lot and need to fidget and move around a lot - so clapping my hands, fidgeting with my hair.
I am such a fuck up but I have no clue how to fit in or be normal. I feel like I will never change or get anywhere in life and that people still see me as an annoying immature kid
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IAmALoser · 18/01/2017 18:14
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