I work three days a week in a relatively high pressure job. Days are hectic, with the children, animals, general household stuff, legging it around getting everyone to where they need to be on time, with everything they need! However, despite the chaos and stress, some days, once I get to work and have a quick five minutes with a nice hot coffee at my nice clean desk and think ‘phew’!!
I think the problem is that I still try and do some work on my ‘days off’ (I hate that phrase…how is it a day off looking after two U4s?!). My job isn’t a 9-5 so clients will still contact me with something that needs an ‘urgent’ response. I know need to be stricter, and that things can wait till I’m back in the office……I should just stick my ‘out of office’ on, but I also feel this sense of responsibility to work, perhaps as I feel like I need to prove myself, as if its some kind of weakness to work part-time. So I think this is something that I have created myself, rather than something that work have imposed on me. As such I struggle with the contrast between the days, and to switch off completely.
I thought working three days and having days at home with my children would be idyllic, but the reality is just so different. I also end up doing the bulk of the household chores on my at home days as it has all built up whilst we’re both at work.
I find myself enjoying my work days more, and I feel so guilty about it! I almost feel envious when I hear my husband driving off in the morning, then there’s that sinking feeling when I hear my oldest padding around the floor at 6am…thinking of the long day ahead with playgroups, parks, crafting, tantrums, nappies, the constant demands….ok I’m going to say it… as much as I completely and utterly love my children, I think I find being a mummy just a little bit boring…. How bad does that sound?!! What a bad mummy.
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lightsussex · 22/09/2016 08:55
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