My mum died when I was 7. I don't remember her much. I had a bit of a strange childhood, as I lived with grandparents for a bit, then back with my dad, but I always knew I wasn't wanted anywhere.
Now I have a baby of my own and I'm finding it so hard, because I don't know what mums are supposed to do. I can do all the stuff like cleaning and feeding but I don't think I feel towards him like mums are supposed to.
Will this just come in time? (He is 7 1/2 months.) I feel more towards him now than I did. He smiles at me now and makes sounds and is showing that he's a "person" so is it just that it can be hard when babies are tiny?
Other times he just cries. Everyone says it's teeth and normal and not to worry.
I can't imagine him being a little boy though. I can't imagine loving or liking him (I know that sounds terrible.)
I don't feel I want counselling so please don't suggest it! I just want to know how others who might not have had a mum became a mum.
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To be struggling to be a mum, when I've never had a mum
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calliecat · 18/09/2016 11:08
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