I went to the GP yesterday as I've noticed some bleeding after sex and discomfort during. She examined me and said my cervix looks "very angry" and inflamed and that she was referring me for an urgent colposcopy which will most likely include a biopsy.
She followed this up with "try not to worry" and rationally, I know there's no point in getting myself all worked up until I know whats actually going on but I'm a nervous wreck. Everything i've read mentions cervical cancer and i've banned myself from consulting Dr Google any further as it was clearly not helping me.
I have a 2.5 yo DD and every time I look at her I want to burst into tears. We're going to a party tonight (big family birthday) and I'm absolutely dreading having to put on a happy face and make small talk with everyone as I feel so emotional. There have been some fairly major health issues within the family over the last year or so that have caused a lot of stress (particularly for my Mum) so I don't want anyone to notice I'm out of sorts as i'd rather keep it to myself until I know more.
I can't tell if how I'm feeling is normal under these circumstances or if I need to get a grip. I'm generally very good at staying calm and being practical when it comes to family/friends health issues and I worked as a nurse until quite recently so I suppose I'm annoyed with myself for not handling this very well.
Can anyone who has had similar investigations tell me how did you cope with the 'not knowing' and the anxiety of waiting for those appointments to happen? I don't know what I'm posting for really because I know noone can give me any answers. I suppose I just needed to get it off my chest.
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yorkshapudding · 13/08/2016 12:13
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