5 years ago I started a 2 year degree, paid for by my employer. I did 9/10 months of it, but then was finding it really difficult as I had a 7 year old and a full time job. I had passed everything up to that point, but was really struggling with one of the modules and I ended up leaving the course. I had been studying the year previous to my degree and passed that course quite easily, so was feeling like I could do it when I started. My boss has always been keen for me to get back to it, although was very understanding at the time and really tried to help me. But it just wasn't the right time. I felt like a crap mum for most of those months.
Anyway, I think he's planning to retire within the next year and again the subject of my degree has come up, with him telling me I'll be in the right place at the right time if I get back to it.
Part of me wants to do it, to prove to myself that I can, and to widen my job prospects. I don't even have a mortgage just now. But I'm nervous that I'll feel out of my depth again. And although my son is 11 now and it would be easier from that point of view, I've just changed my hours slightly so that I can be home for him after school. He's gone to AS care until now, but is starting high school. The uni course would mean I'd be out when he finished school and I have no-one to watch him until his dad finishes. (He stays with dad 2 nights and hopefully he'd swap one of those to suit my uni day). I'm also at a point where I'd really like to meet someone and have a relationship, or even just take up a hobby, but I'd struggle to fit it all in.
I feel like I'm making excuses not to do it, but they are genuine. But I also feel I'll regret it if I don't take the opportunity. I'm 34, already working in the sector, and although it's not something I love, I'm not going to have the chance to do anything else that would set my heart on fire either.
I suppose I'm just wondering what others would do? Would I be mad to pass up the chance?
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blondieblondie · 28/07/2016 16:25
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