Suffer with cyclothymia and severe anxiety. When it's bad it's horrendous.
Had a mental breakdown mid-May and was given Citalopram, the first 2 weeks were horrific. Wanted to die every day. Had hallucinations, paranoia, couldn't stop crying. Referred for counselling. Assessed by the crisis team. Family visited to look after me.
Was signed off for 2 weeks.
Meds started working, the clouds started to lift, I went back to work for 10 days. My manager and colleagues have been nice about it.
This weekend "the black dog" came back with a vengeance. This morning I woke up sobbing and scared. Not sure what of.
Phoned in sick again.
Doctors later.
My manager and colleagues are so understanding and nice about it. But I feel so bad.
They're being left in the lurch because of me. The doctor will want to sign me off again so that's another 2 weeks of me not being at my job to help them and they're now going to be short staffed.
DH and my family says not to worry and concentrate on getting better.
But I'm a natural worrier and I feel so so bad about letting people down.
I hate myself
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echelon · 27/06/2016 10:33
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