I am feeling like nothing right now, I'm at rock bottom. My son was murdered at the end of last year.<br><br>He wasn't exactly an angel, no. However, he didn't deserve to die. He had done well for himself, he had made his life better and was keeping well away from anything remotely dodgy. It's sad, very sad. The day someone was arrested, I had a little bit of hope, but they were released. It's so difficult. He was a young dad and his girlfriend and daughter have been left here to suffer, along with his mum, who never hoped to out live him.<br><br>I'm currently on holiday, with my beautiful granddaughter and his girlfriend. She is such a lovely woman. She is only young herself though. I don't know what I'm getting at. I just hate that justice has not been served and it's getting me down to keep hurting at the thought that his killer is free. <br><br>I'm sorry, I'm just not sure who else to go to. I'm not the type to do any kind of counselling or therapy. I like getting through it in my own time.