I have an obessive/addictive personality and can often go off the rails when things go awry. I suffer from depression and anxiety.
I have been feeling quite shit lately and have spent a small fortune on new clothes. (A small fortune to me anyway) and ended up spending half of my "spends" from my wages before I even had it. As such I have about half of my monthly spends to last til payday.
I have been feeling very itchy and not right lately. Nothing to put my finger on but not quite right.
We got some bad news yesterday that my aunt has cancer. I am not particularly close to this aunt but am fiercely protective of my Mum due to issues that arose around the time of my grandma's death with her siblings. Those feelings have arisen again and I am really in a "I dont give a fuck what you think mood" and am liable to explode should anyone upset my Mum. I am finding this is making my vciew on the whole thing quite.... numb and distanced. I am extremely close to my Mum and would hate my feelings to upset her in any way. I have said to her this morning I am here 100% if she needs me but I don't "get" the sibling feeling as I don't have any. She said she understands and that it is just hard for her to get her head around because her sister is poorly.
I really don't know what to do. I feel all fidgety, itchy and almost buzzing lately.... Help.
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cjt110 · 06/05/2016 10:08
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