I have been in a new job at a preschool for a few months now. I took it out of convenience if I'm honest as it fits in with school hours but I do enjoy working with the children. I struggle with confidence though, after several years out of work I do feel a bit nervous a lot of the time and I'm new to childcare and constantly feel painfully aware of not being qualified or experienced enough. I'm not the most practical person either, I used to do IT so having to think on my feet and be practical is sometimes quite a challenge.
The hardest thing I've found though is fitting in with the other staff. They're all lovely but they're such a tight knit group. On the works night out they didn't speak to me very much and shared a bottle between them and didn't invite me in. Luckily there were volunteers there that I could talk to. They Facebook each other ideas for preschool etc. but I'm not really included in any of it. Now I've just found out they've all been in over the Easter holidays cleaning, painting, clearing out old toys etc. and I wasn't even aware of it. I don't know why I feel so bad about it - I hate cleaning and painting and I've had plenty of stuff on this holiday so would have struggled to find the time but I guess it hurts a little to be dismissed as a source of help. I guess they know I'm not the most practical person or maybe they just don't like me or feel I'm part of their team yet.
It's just demotivated me a little and I find it hard already to be positive and believe in myself and my ability to do this job as it is. Am I being a total twat?!
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Stillbloodyfat · 03/04/2016 12:05
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