Sorry, I know this isn't the right topic for this, and I may be flamed and told to get a grip, but I'm really not coping with my life at the moment.
I'd rather not give too many details, but family life is very stressful with no end in sight, just one of those things.
I have anxiety. For the last few months I've been getting physical manifestations, pins and needles in my arm, facial numbness, palpitations, not being able to breathe in properly. I go to the dr to get things checked, and inevitably, everything is fine and generally stops when something has been ruled out, to be replaced with something else.
Latest thing is very mild chest pain. I can feel it come on when I get stressed about something, anything. I've had an ECG which was fine. But I can't help worrying that something's been missed and I could keel over at any time (which sounds like anxiety talking?) I've also had blood tests to rule out other things.
I also have ASD, so get stressed at silly things like shopping, seeing people too often without having time alone to wind down. I'm not sleeping well at the moment, never do when stress builds up, can't switch off until late, wake up in the middle of the night to stew over things.
This week, having spent the whole of last week with other people, and Christmas shopping over the weekend, dealing with stuff at home, it's all built up to me feeling dreadful tonight, really horrible.
I'm compulsively eating, it's like part of my brain switches off and I have no control over what I eat and I hate it. I'm so fat and disgusting.
I've been to the dr before and said all of this, been a few times, but I can't get anywhere.
One dr offered group sessions of cbt, and I said I'd think about it, but I know that I will avoid going to group sessions of anything as it makes everything feel worse. Then I feel like one of life's moany people because there's probably a very simple solution to all this, but I can't figure it out, and as the months go on, I have more and more to have to cope with, and I don't know how much longer I can do it.
What do I do?
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Waa · 15/12/2015 21:54
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