I've named changed because I'm utterly humilialted and shocked at my own reaction. About a year ago, I contracted what appeared to be a vomiting bug. Only, the vomiting never stopped, up to 10 times a day at my worst point. After a lot of to-ing and fro-ing, head scratching from specialists and hospital admissions, I was diagnosed with Gastroparesis. In simple terms, my stomach pump does not function properly.
I've slowly got worse and worse but always managed some food. After my last episode, I've been advised to come off oral nutrition, with the exception of a limited amout of fluids, and be tube fed. I've been on tube feeds on and off but I've been able to eat. Due to complications, I now can't. I was told on Friday. I've cried on and off the entire weekend, including spending all of Saturday in bed because I just couldn't face the world.
I've always been a food lover. We go out to eat as a family all the time. I spend money on good quality food, love cooking, love baking and just generally enjoy socialising around food and wine.
I've not really come to terms with my illness and although eating has slowly become more restricted, the sudden realisation that I cannot at all - even for a short period - has crushed me.
AIBU to be in such a bloody state? I think I am. :(
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givemefood · 03/08/2015 14:41
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