In 2009 the place I had worked since leaving school in the mid 90's closed down and I was made redundent. My job was a technical job which is more or less obsolete due to technology.
Soon after losing that job my long term partner and I split up and I decided perhaps rashly to move to London to study with my savings. I did just about manage to finish my course but I got very little out of it. I was very lonely in London and became depressed and to boot I squandered all my money on too expensive rent. I had imagined it would be a new life for me but in the end come crawling back home.
At first I did try to get a job, I applied for everything but was lucky if I got a reply saying no thanks. Not a single interview in two long years. It awful I gained a lot of weight and became very depressed which was further impacted when I developed epilepsy after a very minor stroke only detected when I started having seizures which are now fully controlled. After my stroke I was put onto disability payments and no longer required to seek work.
I have now been unmployed for 6 years and have done practically zero in that time. I kept waiting to feel better but even as I recovered from my illnesses the inactivity and isolation shrunk my mind it feels like. I am ashamed of my body and appearance and hate meeting people, I feel in a constant fog and drift off in the middle of doing things and sometimes can't see how to do a simple thing. I am so not ready for work and feel like my life is over and i am only in my mid 30's.
My only work experiance is in that feild not customer service, no admin and so on just working with materials and a techology nobody uses anymore. I have tried to get volunteering work but so many people are going for it it has become competitive even for tea making and the like. I do see my doctors still but they don't have the time to really discuss my situation they just want to make sure my meds are ok.
AIBU to think I don't have a snowballs chance in hell to find a job, make a life for myself and maybe meet someone?
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sadoloser · 07/07/2015 17:39
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