Hope someone can offer an opinion, really don't know what to do. By the way I've had to name change as its sensitive.
I was diagnosed with depression after losing my fit healthy mother suddenly on Xmas eve. However I was never convinced of the diagnosis, just feel the loss hit me very badly and I struggled to pick myself up. I stopped working and wasn't able to continue. I cried for hours most days, couldn't go outside, went to a&e with panic attacks. Never suicidal but told GP I wished I could just drop dead, which I think was a concern for him.
Now i am ok ish. I am applying for voluntary work, eating again (went from size 14 to a 8 but not in a good way) and feel content for a little while each day, but yes still horribly sad at times. Still wonder what the point of life is (as in wtf does any of it mean!) but just trying to focus on DP and my dad.
The issue is this: I was prescribed citalopram three months ago at a reasonable dose. It took the edge off my grief, possibly (I really don't know how much was placebo effect).
Last month I cut down to the lowest dose, and now I don't even take it daily. Dr doesn't know this and I suspect would not be happy, as he wanted me on it for longer. I feel the same, maybe a bit better. I think that is just time doing its work with the grief. And some good talking therapy.
I cut down as I am 37 and want to try for my first baby with DP. I don't feel time is really on our side and it may take a while as I have pcos and we had been trying for quite a few months before mum died, with no success. Ideally I'd quit ad's properly soon and then start ttc ASAP. I think if I can't conceive, having left it too late, then I will be in an even worse mental state. GP is all 'we need to get YOU sorted first' but don't think he understands this. I asked to see his female colleague to discuss this a while ago, but she agreed with him
I know no one can advise over the Internet, but how does this sound to you? I am worried my dr will be annoyed as he said I should be on citalo for at least 9 months. That would mean waitindb another 6 months :(
Note - I can't take the ads AND TTC as it would make me too anxious, even though I know it is possible and many have done it
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NeroliNeroliLifeIsBut · 16/06/2014 20:40
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