Ok, so here goes. I'm terrified of writing this and have never spoken to anyone about it in rl.
When I was about 5 I had a best friend, I would go over to her house all the time. One day we where playing and she said I could only play with her doll if I played this other game first. I won't go into detail but this game was sexual play. At the time I didn't understand it and it tickled so I wasn't too bothered.
At the time I had no idea what it was,and in no way blame this friend as she obviously learned it somewhere and probably had no idea either, it was something she wanted to play a lot and went on for a few years until she moved.
I also showed this game to another friend obviously not knowing what I was doing wrong.
I feel like I was abused and as a result I played this 'game' with another child and after growing up and realising what it was iv never really gotton over it.
I feel like I need to talk about it but I'm terrified of speaking about it.
I thought opening up here is a start... Sorry if I sound like an awful horrible person, it's haunted me my whole life.
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to be too scared to go for much needed counselling (very sensitive subject)
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