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To think my father was totally in the wrong?(40 Posts)
I've namechanged but am a regular.
I've recently gone non contact with my parents. There are a variety of reasons why I've done this. My father has severe anger issues and I think there is lots of emotional abuse going on between him and my mother. My father cannot understand why I've gone non contact and thinks the following is ok:
When I was a child he smacked me a lot. Not just the odd tap on the hand or bum if I did something dangerous, but if he was in a bad mood he's start to invent things i'd done wrong, or would make out things I'd done wrong were worse than they are, and would really whack me hard, often around the head.
I remember once, aged 7 or 8, going to a playground with my parents and suddenly getting hit around the head and falling to the floor. I thought someone had attacked me but it was my dad hitting me saying I'd 'stuck my tongue out at my mum'. When I'd done nothing of the sort and was just playing.
The smacking continued on and off until I left home at 21. Even in my late teens/early 20s if I disagreed with him or he didn't like what I had to say I'd end up going flying across the kitchen or with a slap on my face. Or he'd punch me on my arm. Or he'd shout at me so loudly in my face and make me wet myself.
He seems to think the above is normal and has been saying to family members that I'm the one with the problem and that I'm ungrateful, and that that is how families work. Of course, I know the opposite and bring my kids up in a totally different way. But his behaviour still bothers me. I don't suppose I'm ever going to convince him he was in the wrong though am I?
This is going to sound like I am justifying your Dad's behaviour, but I'm not. I'm trying to explain it so that you might understand how he came to be like that. I can see so many similarities in my own childhood.
I disagree with most of the posters on here, as I think years ago it was often the norm to hit children quite a lot. I suspect he was brought up just that way. My father also hit me quite a lot, often around the head, and he didn't think anything of it either. I have a dent in my skull to this day, that I don't know how it got there, but I suspect that it was due to him. I don't think he meant it to be abusive. It didn't cross his mind that he shouldn't do it.
However I did not get the violence that you suffered. I was never hit to the ground, or punched, or shouted at in the face to that extreme. Your experience must have been beyond what was reasonable, even in those days, and he must have known that.
Possibly you mum might have seen herself acting as a supportive wife, (after all that may be what she was brought up to believe) not criticising her husband, albeit at the expense of her own child.
Saying all that, if they are still emotionally abusive to you, and cannot or will not see that what they did was wrong and apologise then you are doing the right thing to back away from them.
I went no contact with my sister some years ago and haven't regretted it a bit. In my opinion family relationships can be very over-rated.
you need to confront him about it and get an apology, at the very least
You honestly don't need to. And he is unlikely suddenly to admit he is a bastard, realistically.
No, but the very act of standing up to her father would be beneficial - it would be a positive act of self-assertion against someone who has seriously mistreated her. I, too, doubt if an apology would be forthcoming, but the OP is owed one and asking for one sends out a powerful signal that their unequal relationship has changed.
If the OP doesn't' feel able to confront her father personally - and who could blame her? - she could write him a letter, expressing her feelings. That could well be her last communication with him and , I think, would be very therapeutic.
you NEED to read Toxic Parents by Susan Forward, and you need to come on over to the Stately Homes thread.
You need to understand that NONE of this is your fault and none of it was right.
you didn't do this lovey, they did, and you cutting them off is the kindest thing you can do for yourself.
He is still trying to control you. And doesn't like that you've walked away.
Well done you!
My Dad was a heavy handed alcoholic. As a grandparent he sees the error of his ways and is such a gentle person now. But I would have walked away and kept my children from him if he hadn't changed.
OP where was your mother in all of this when you were a child. Did he bully her, was she scared of him. I am really sorry this has happened to you. I dont blame you for what you are doing. Have you discussed this with your mother, if so, what are her opinions.
my fil is/was abusive and dh is finding it hard to go NC.
same as others, family has conveniently forgotten the abuse and deny deny deny. even when they were scrubbing the blood from his carpet(he almost beat a girlfriend to death) they denied he was abusive.
don't waste your breath trying to convince others, none so blind as those that won't see, etc.
Your Dad was totally out of order and abusive. No excuses. Maintain no contact if you can. These people rarely charge or admit their wrongdoing.
It is ok to feel sad and angry about it. Try counselling if you feel it may help.
You deserve a happy life and it is far more likely to be so without this man in it.
Of course YANBU. You were physically abused, do you realize that. Have you asked for counselling.
I disagree with most of the posters on here, as I think years ago it was often the norm to hit children quite a lot.
Rubbish. I am 45 years old, and most definitely my siblings and I did NOT get hit. I have an extended maternal family and hitting was simply not done anywhere in that family.
I'm so sorry this happened to you! You are in the right and he is wrong. Whether or not he ever acknowledges or admits it. Have you had any counselling at all?
BigGapMum, I'm sorry to say that you were abused too but because it was all you knew you have normalized it.
I don't suppose I'm ever going to convince him he was in the wrong though am I?
No, and the quicker you move on from that, realise it was and is unfair the better you will be.
sorry that sounded harsh, it wasn't meant to be. You will not convince him because either he doesn't believe it or he is still enjoying the hold his behaviour has on you.
write them all a letter telling them how they have made you feel, it will help you I think, post it then cut off contact and get on with your life guilt free.
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