AIBU to be upset with my husbands job...(39 Posts)
First time poster here! So we live overseas in a crappy country and the kids and I have to leave to go to our home country over the summer due to there being nothing to do in residence country.
We have currently been out of the country for 3 and a half weeks and will be returning to residence country in 3 and a half weeks time. My husband travels a lot for his job to other overseas countries. I am an extremely jealous type of person, for no real reason as he does not give me reasons to not trust him, however I just cannot get over my jealousy issues and I am worried of what the consequences could be if I do not get my reactions under control.
This week he has an extremely important week of meetings in an amazing country. This has involved him going out for dinner and drinks at very fancy restaurants every night since last Friday and I am so angry and jealous and I keep sending him sarcastic and passive aggressive texts, I can't help it!!
I guess I am angry as I am stuck in our home country with our two kids aged 3 and 5 and we have all been struck down with a tummy bug this week so I have had a horrible week and he hasn't even asked how we are, just informing me of his wonderful dining experiences and complaining he is tired! I just want to shout at him that it's not fair!!!! I want him to be stuck in his hotel room , miserable and missing us but he is having a ball and I hate it.
How on earth do I get over this? I hate that I am like this but as soon as I hear the text come in, I boil with rage!!!
Pinkslipper82 Tue 23-Jul-13 13:56:39
"I don't think he is going to cheat on me (although I do accuse him of that)"
However unhappy you are, however lonely and frustrated- this has got to stop! It is not fair on the poor man, in fact I would go as far as to consider it a form of emotional abuse.
It would certainly be a dealbreaker for me, I would walk out on anyone who kept accusing me of cheating because I would see it as my duty to safeguard my own menal health.
Get help, see a doctor if you think you need to, above all, have a serious talk with your dh about other solutions to your life (less well paid job for him, moving somewhere you can have a career). But don't do it to him.
Would it be possible for you to live in SA and then for your DH to travel for work as at least then you will have support and hopefully friends? Obviously I don't know what your H does so this may not be possible. It must be rubbish my H travels in Africa quite alot and I would be reluctant to move there and be on my own especially with language difficulties.
Thanks ladies I do know that I am being unreasonable and I do regret the messages that I send him and do apologise afterwards. Slangwhanger you have hit the nail on the head with saying you craved time away from the kids. I love my kids, they are great however I do fantisise about doing all the things we did before we had the kids, it seems like he is living a bit of a carefree life, staying in fancy hotels and fancy restaurants having drinks and adult company every night whilst I have chicken nuggets with the kids watching cartoons!
We lived in Qatar for 5 years before this posting and I did not feel like this while we lived there although he did not travel while we were there. Living in Uz is not the problem it's the travelling and the socialising that he gets to do while I am with the kids 90% of the time.
We have a years left on this project and then we will move to the next job, hopefully it's one that does not include so much travelling!
Cory, I realise that and that is why I need to stop. I have been good today, he has gone out for the fifth night in a row and I have not sent any sarcastic or PA messages, I am grateful for the fact that he keeps me updated with what he is doing as he knows I worry.
I wouldn't fancy living in Uz either.
If he's away a lot anyway, could you base yourself somewhere else?
We have to be based in Uz as per the companies policy, although its not nice living there I can do it, it's the fact that we have to be apart so often that I battle with.
That does seem tough.
Is there any way in which you could investigate alternatives for the two of you? There are other companies in the world- does he have to work for this particular one? Doing this particular job?
Sit down with a piece of paper and draw up possible scenarios for a bit. If you had your freedom and could pick how you really wanted your family set up to work, what would it look like? Where would you like to live, how would you like to live? What is important to you, what is less important?
And then ask yourself, is there any way you and your dh could actually make this happen?
Ask yourself, what would the likely price be that you had to pay. Less income? Both of you working? And then weight that against the gains.
Also, ask yourself (or better, both of you), where is this going? What will happen in a few years' time when your children are older, need better education, become teenagers? What will happen to you when they leave home? Is the whole of your life going to be about getting posted to places which you have no control of and where there is nothing for you to do? Is this a way of living you can cope with?
I suspect that your jealousy and irritability stem from a feeling of powerlessness: you feel you have nothing to set up against the dictates of your dh's firm. But they don't own him and he is only one of the two adults in your marriage. Decisions have to be taken by the two of you. Together. Time for a serious talk imo.
I agree with cory and it seems that saying 'I can't help it' has the potential to damage your relationship beyond repair so I'm glad you're addressing your behaviour to and treatment of your husband. Until you get to the root of why you feel the need to behave as you have been doing it will be difficult to move on from it.
Uz is grim, you absolutely have my sympathies on that one OP.
I think however you're taking your frustrations out on your DP and that's not fair. So you need to work out what your plan is, with DP. If you only have a year in Uz left, what's next? How are your finances looking? Do you still have to be living overseas, if so, can you work out a short list of countries you would like to live in?
How about getting your skills up to date, there are lots of online things you can do, like Open University in the UK, which is all online.
On a simpler basis, you need to work out something to do with your hands instead of sending PA texts. Take up knitting (I'm serious!), or download one of those apps that blocks numbers between certain hours. It's a nasty habit which is grinding you both down and it needs to stop.
Good luck, as I say I do know that Uz is a really shit posting.
I know I didn't live anywhere as difficult as you but there were times when we were living as expats when I did feel a bit sorry for myself. I have had to fend for myself a lot and sometimes the uncertainty would be really frustrating. My DH had to travel shortly after i gave birth and i always seemed to be husbandless whenever we moved. I nearly always travelled (internationally) alone with the four kids No mean feet with a baby, two toddlers and a 5 year old. We were fortunate that we had 'easy' countries and that we enjoyed ourselves but sometimes I daydreamed about living around the corner from my Mum and Dad in the Uk.
Whilst we never motivated simply by the money the aftermath of years of living as expats has now put us in a very comfortable financial position. It shouldn't be the be all and end all but it is compensation for those times I felt a bit sorry for myself.
I haven't read all the replies but it sounds like you're feeling resentful more than anything. I can't blame you. Yes YABU but it's hard.
My kids are 4 & 5 and I know I'd feel the same in your shoes. But you need to find a way to deal with these feelings and a way forward where your H helps you and supports you when with you and encourages you when he's not but you also need to learn to not sending passive aggressive texts to him or snipe at him when home, if the feelings bubble over then too. Or it will really damage your marriage over time.
Wish I had more wise advice but I do feel for you.
YABU to send the texts, which you know, but I do sympathise OP.
My DH does a job he adores and it involves him travelling a fair bit, which are often social/networking things. It also means we have to live wherever his job sends us, so far in different parts of the UK to my family. It's tough being on your own with the kids all the time, especially when you or them are ill and I can see how it's irritating when he is sending you annoying texts, particularly if they are about how tired he is...
Are there any ex-pat groups you could join to make some friends, and perhaps find someone who would have the kids for a couple of nights for you? Can DH's work help with that - most companies who ask people to travel for work have a department that deals with helping ex-pats and their families to settle in.
Or, if it's really grim, would you be any worse off if you and DCs returned to SA to live, and DH could visit every so often? Company might pay???
As others have pointed out the whole international jet set thing sounds very glamourous but more often than not the reality is quite different. Getting up at 3am to catch the 6am flight, not sleeping well or having to work on the plane, landing in a different time zone, heading straight to the office to work a 12 hour shift before being taken out by the client where you are expected to be full of life and chatty in the company of some truly dull people for several more hours when all you want to do is go to bed in the identikit hotel room that looks identical to all the other hotel rooms you have stayed in. Very occasionally you might be able to tag a day off at the end of the trip to relax and see the sights (if any), more often though you are back on the plane to the UK where you are then straight back on the coalface. It is not all cocktails, Aston Martins and exotic beach locations.
Texting your DH with sarcastic bitchy comments is probably the last thing he needs when he is knackered, alone in a strange country and missing his family. YABVU and he is probably wondering whats the point of it all.
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