I have a son who is 28, he is SN (he has Aspergers).
When he was pre-school and until he was 8 I managed to smile through all the competitive parenting, although at times it was difficult. He went to a special school when he was 8 and it was a relief to all us parents that we were in the same boat and all the competitive stuff stopped.
He has never had friends, a social life, nor mates to go out with or down the pub for a game of darts.
All this time I have watched my friend of 16 years bring up her 3 NT boys, who have a varied social life, lots of mates, get married, live life to the full.
And I have smiled, and tried to not compare, but it has got harder and harder.
Now her eldest son and his wife are expecting a baby and that is all I hear about, plus how wonderful the other 2 boys are doing with their mates and their amateur dramatics and who has won what just lately.
I don't know that I can start the cycle all over again, I really don't. I no longer know how to smile and nod and all the time inside my heart is breaking. I have done it for 28 years and I do not feel I can do it any longer.
I don't want to see pictures of the scan, and know how her morning sickness is, and know she is expecting multiples and how involved my friend is going to have to be every day.
I know I will never have grandchildren. I feel so lonely, alone and isolated.
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AIBU to be so tired and embittered?
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Cassarick · 12/02/2013 18:40
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