To give up uni......(38 Posts)
First time posting on AIBU but I need some tough love!
Back story is I'm separated with a 7 year old DS. After working in legal office industry for 7 years I decided on a career change. Spent 2 years laying the ground work for this and got myself into uni. (this alone I am amazed at!)
Anyway, half way through first year at uni I took some time out to get over a bereavement, I am now due back and the thought is making me ill. I just don't want to work in this industry anymore. The hours are completely inappropriate for a single parent, clearly I never thought it through properly in the first instance.
Am I crazy for throwing this away?? People keep telling me it'll be worth it in the end ect but my heart just isn't in it anymore.
The only thing keeping me there just now is the fact I don't have an alternative. (and the bursary is excellent)
Help, help, help!! I want to run away from this, which is my answer to everything but it doesn't work
Talk to your academic advisor (sometimes they're called personal tutors or similar).
They will be able to talk you through your options and help you think about careers that would use your nursing degree without the anti-social hours (dad's specialist oncology nurse, for instance, appears to only work Monday-Friday 9-5 and I don't think she does any hands-on clearing-up-poo type work either).
As you're still in your first year, the funding will still be there to switch to another degree (at the same uni or elsewhere) if that's something that might attract you. How about social work, for instance? Still some funny hours, but less so as far as I'm aware, and it's still a caring profession.
I think nursing is one of those things that you really shouldn't be doing if you don't love it. Just to clarify, do you like nursing but not like doing a degree? If this is the case then you should stick it out.
I am also doing an adult nursing degree, and I love nursing, love working with people, find A&P really fascinating etc. I am also a single parent, and haven't started placement yet, but already feel like ds is being passed from pillar to post to a certain extent, but feel it will be worth it when I qualify.
If you actually don't like nursing itself, then I would say you should re-think things, and consider doing something else instead.
Agree with longjane. Unless you can transfer to another course and keep the bursary, then stick with the nursing degree.
It looks a lot better on your CV to have completed a degree then to give it up (unless you have something really good to go to).
Speak to your course supervisors, maybe speak to your GP about anxiety and the bereavement you have suffered. See if it's possible to delay your next placement so that you have a chance to sort out child care and maybe move in with your mum temporarily.
Whatever you do, don't make any big decisions while you are feeling like this. Look into all options first.
You don't have to nurse once you have your degree
and It can give in to loads of other jobs
keep at it
it is a good degree to do as you said you get money to do .
Another nurse here saying if you don't love it, don't do it.
However, I find 12.5 hrs shifts are perfect - I work 2 days a week (over part time) & grandparents do the school run for me. In the school holidays - I only worked 5 days in 6 weeks with 3 days A/L.
My shift pattern is stopping me considering a community role because it seems so flexible.
How about nights - sleep whilst DS is at school...
But really, don't continue if you don't enjoy nursing. Patients and their families deserve someone who is happy to care for them, not someone who is going through the motions.
Forgot to add, no bursary for these courses but your fees are paid.
OP, if it's the working hours (on placement and once qualified) that are the problem, but you still want to be in healthcare, have you considered maybe switching to occupational therapy or physiotherapy? They still work approximately office hours, although this is changing; but night work is pretty much always going to be just call-outs for physio respiratory patients.
If the thought of it is making you ill I think you should think of an alternative option. Could you change course. But on the other hand if you have 2 and a half years left and only half of that is placement it might be worth sticking it out if you do actually want to nurse and you will be able hopefully to get more flexible hours after you qualify. But if you have more or less decided nursing isn't for you then there really isn't any point in continuing.
Is there an option to study part time?
I am studying Adult Nursing, returning after maternity leave in sept. I have had to drop back 6 months. I have ds 6, dd 4, ds 6months.
It is the toughest thing I have ever done, I won't get a high mark for my degee as I just can't give the essays the time, but for me Nursing is the job I desperatly want to do. I love it, but it's the hardest job if you don't want to be there.
Don't go into nursing if it's not what you really want. The learning never stops even when you qualify. You have to think about being a mentor, you have to take on extra roles within the ward/unit you work in. You have to do updates continuously.
The NHS is going through some tough times, moral is low. You need to be able to say you want to be there for the patients no matter what, if you can't it's the wrong job for you.
Sorry that you are finding things tough, going back to a new cohort, new friends etc is hard.
Moving in with your mum sounds like a plan!! There are so many different avenues of nursing, you just may not have 'met' the one for you.
I am just over half way through an access course, so very jealous of where you are now.
I do have years of hospital and care experience behind me, so am sure this is what I want to do (despite being scared of having ultimate responsibilty).
ALso, how many placements have you had so far? Is it just one or two? It's normal not to enjoy every ward you work on. There is a lot of variety in nursing jobs and it's quite possible that you will enjoy your next placement.
Before you suffered the bereavement, how were you coping with the course and placements?
Do you feel you have had enough time off following the bereavement?
I don't think you should make any major decisions at the moment. Have you spoken to your course supervisor/tutor?
I'm actually a SAHM at the moment as I have a two year old and a 3 week old (had both whilst studying, I graduate on Monday) but im looking to just go into admin or something (looking for job after Christmas) so I can do another course while working in something I want to do.
I look back now and wish I hadn't gone (especially today as I have just gotten my letter to tell me how and when im paying my loan back).
If you're not enjoying the placements then obviously you need to reconsider your choices, but if its just the inconvenience factor I think you need to look a bit more long term . I'm a nurse , qualified in the dark ages, I fell into it and its definitely not a vocation , however I do enjoy the job and over the years it's been fantastic for fitting into my life. I work very part time but love the knowledge that should I need to become the main wage earner I could do so very easily and on my terms( through agency / bank shifts) .
If your heart isn't in it don't go
Your children are only little once
My friend did her degree with 2 small boys
It was part time, so 4years if slog and no weekends
Her boys are now 21 and 23
She still regrets missing so much of their early years
<disclaimer> this is her experience
Other may vary!
Oh feck that's exactly what I'm worried about! Can I ask what your doing now? I don't want to waste the next few years sticking something out in the hope that it works out and then discover that it was a waste of time!
Sorry, I meant I don't like the wobble, it feels very in natural. Plus I can't help thinking that if I was about to start doing something I actually liked, the wobble wouldn't be as bad. More like a excited nervous wobble instead of a want to run away and drink lots if wine wobble (in Aa)
More confused than ever now
This is awkward seen as most people are saying to stick it out but if you generally hate it, leave! I hated my first year at uni, stuck it out, to then hate the second and third years and now im left with a no good degree in something I don't like and don't want to pursue.
You know what is right for yourself, but good luck whatever you decide to do.
What do you not like? Nursing or the wobble?
The thing is, once you have qualified, you dont need to be "stuck" with it. You can go back for more qualifications and more specializations later. Like become a midwife, a health visitor, etc.
Air hostess! (If you are a sucker for never knowing where, and when you work, and how long your shifts will be!)
Yes I still have 2 and a half years left to do, I think half of that is theory and other half placement.
I don't know what I'd do if I didn't go back. I keep thinking about going back to office work but there is no career or future prospects in it, I just feel very at home sitting at a desk with a computer for some reason?! But the career/prospects/money issue is why I left in the first place, need to be able to support DS.
Definitely having a wobble I don't like it!
By the time you qualify your DS will be nearly at secondary school. If I were you i'd finish the qualification now anyway and then see what happens. You've still got at least two years to go studying haven't you? What would you do if you didn't go back?
I think you might just be having a wobble... (understandably)
Loving what you are doing would help. You are going to spend the rest of your life doing it.
Thanks for all your replies, you've given different angles to look at. Sorry don't know how to get your user names in the post.
On the one hand, yeh I should look at the bigger picture and my DS will be fine I just need to detach a bit. He does have excellent grand parents on his dads side which I definitely don't utilise as much as I could.
I suppose I don't need to 'love' what I'm doing right??
Moving in with your mum while you study might make a lot of sense.
I'm actually considering moving into my mums spare bedroom (I need to move anyway) but it would mean DS and I sharing a bedroom which isn't ideal, but would be a bit easier.
I don't really have friends with children, I actually don't really have many friends to be honest. The only 2 is rely on are in different country's!
Au pair sounds quite expensive? I've never actually known anyone to have one.
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