i am 33 tomorrow and i am a bit sad about it.....6 years ago i was the lead singer in a rock band, i was young, pretty and cool. i was out all the time and was not short of male attention....always at the hottest gigs and parties and hanging around with other musicians. i was a single mum to my (then) baby DS, who was even part of it (he would sometimes come to gigs with ear protectors and all my friends loved him and made a big fuss of him). I remember clearly all the fun and drama and craziness cos it all started around this time 6 years ago...
i was part of a, sort of, music "scene" (i guess) that was around in my town at the time. it was pretty shallow but everyone knew who we were and wanted to be in our crowd. we could get backstage passes and free drinks and get in clubs for nothing etc. god we thought we were so cool 
.... in the last few years, everyone has split off from it now and doing their own thing, one or two have "made it" in the music industry but mostly the people from that crowd (like me) have families now, got married, etc.
i wouldn't want to be doing it now but part of me still hankers after it, and feels nostalgic for those days. yet a lot of the time i was quite lonely really, as i said, it was quite a shallow kind of environment and deep down, really i just wanted to settle down and find a nice man and have more dcs. which i have now done. (actually I met DH cos he inveigled his way into my my band as a drummer after finding us on myspace and falling in love with me at first sight.... thats another story....)
but i am mostly just a sensible mum now really, apart from the pole dancing people look shocked and surprised when they hear about my old persona as a rock singer. i was listening to our old songs on myspace (VERY 2007) and it feels like it was a different life. i look at old pictures of myself from the band and don't recognise myself :( DH still does the band thing but i have neither the time or the energy! and quite honestly would feel a bit of a nob being on stage now...
AIBU?
to kind of miss being young and "cool" and a bit of a party girl?
MoomieAndFreddie · 19/11/2012 18:26
Ditto here, i never miss it more than when I DO get to go out and realise im not young and cool anymore 
, never short of male attention still though- just cant do anything with it!
YANBU. I miss old me. I really, really like now me, but I miss old me too. She was fun and wild. I met a young woman the other month who my oldest friend had said was 'just like me when I was young'. I said, 'I see what you mean, but omg I nev had that much energy.' DF said 'actually you had more.' .
No, don't think I've ever been 'cool' 
, only ever been to a night club once in my life - and I'm in my 50s now, perhaps I will become a rock chick in my 60s .
I'm 38.
Since having DD 3 years ago my life, body and energy levels have changed beyond recognition BUT...
...that doesn't stop me from singing in pubs and clubs every weekend 
I know loads of other pro singers the same age or older - get your arse back on that stage
Moomie, I know exactly how you feel. It's a bit identity crisis-y because on one hand I love my life now but my old life there were probably more stories to tell 
Get back in the studio. We moved out of the city to suburbia and there just happens to be a hidden gem of a recording studio not even 15 minutes up the street. Wheeee!
Get back on it!
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