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I think fertility problems and mc can skew your judgement and your feelings somewhat. Its a long hard slog and emotionally soul destroying. I think I agree with a pp who said that you are right to stop the ivf but maybe not try and prevent a "natural" pregnancy if you feel that you would be happy having a baby "if" one just came along.

We had fertility problems and treatment (including failed ivf) for 15 years. Then a doctor basically said "go away there is nothing more we can do for you". We planned our lives as a childless couple and came to terms with the situation. Since I had never fallen pregnant we did not use contraception.

When I was 39 I fell pregnant "naturally". I was elated. 3 months into the pregnancy I was a complete mess. Had a major meltdown on holiday because I wasn't ready (even after 17 years), "it" would ruin our lives which we had just got back on track after being so devastated, all our new plans would have to be put on hold etc etc. I got drunk and was sobbing for days . I realised though that this was just the culmination of all my hurt and feelings over the years and after the meltdown I came to terms with the fact that we were actually going to be (very old) parents. I had a beautiful boy, and, two years later I fell pregnant again and had another beautiful boy. Needless to say I would not change a thing now.

I am only relating this story to you to try and help you put your feelings into context. I think infertility makes you build up so many barriers to stop the pain and hurt that you convince yourself that it really doesn't matter.

I hope everything works out for you x

Thanks del girl x posts are good if opinion is stronger then I'm open to hear it.
No kids here, that's a nice story, the relating is good, and yes I worry about feeling like you did mid pregnancy. Good to hear it turned out well
X

I felt like nokidshere. I had 5 attempts at iui after my dh died. 2 failed, 2 mc's and final one was dd. I put my whole being into it. When it seemed that all was ok with dd I thought omg, what have I done, can I cope, is it fair, all sorts of things. Really, I think it is a coping thing because you know, I think after all i'd been through with dh and the iui, I was then preparing for worst case that all wouldn't be well. Until I held her, I held back a bit. Obviously I wouldn't change having dd, only wish dh was here to share. (The responsibility and sheer bloody hard work lol )

Hug for delgirl x

Wow! A thread that states exactly how it was for me! I had been told that getting pregnant was extremely unlikely and carrying a baby to full term even more so. I was offered IVF but couldn't be doing with all the procedures involved. By that time I had had a laparoscopy, scans and the test where they shoot dye up you to see where it does or doesn't go. I knew that IVF was pretty invasive and decided that I wasn't all that bothered whether I had children or not, and just carried on with my life and siezed opportunities that I ight not have taken if I had had children.

I managed to get pregnant spontaneously and completely out of the blue at 41 and was scared and delighted at the same time.

Looking back I wouldn't say that my life is any better for having DD, it is just different. Children bring a lot of love, but they are also such a worry and your life is never the same.

What nokids said rings true for me too.

We were checked out to get IVF but they said we couldn't (unless we paid), so we just left it up to whether it was meant to be or not - and she was apparently

At first the pregnancy did feel a bit of an inconvenience, especially the no gin part and thinking of the independence I'd/we'd lose, but that didn't last long.

ambivalent. not ambiguous. sorry. not being a total pedant. but just wrong word.

ambivalent. not ambiguous. sorry. not being a total pedant. but just wrong word.

Ha ha thanks

No comment on the OPs situation then MadameD? Just pointing out the inaccuracy?

What a very patronising use of your time.

The posters who've answered knew what you meant Soup, and that's all that matters.

The free dictionary online says it also means doubtful and unsure.
I know I was wrong, but I think I was kinda right of.

I did laugh though. Not a pedant but ... Was a good start

agent, i really respect you as a poster. i am not trying to be patronising. no harm in pointing a word is being used wrongly. i know what the op meant. but wrong flipping word! i judged it not to be a thread that couldnt take a correction. it was not meant to be a sarky aibu bunfight post. i did say sorry in my post. but it was the wrong word.

Madame could to please capitalise for me I can't quite read it ....

Could you! Haha I can't write either. Or make babies, waaaahhh.

anyway, word usage aside. i have only one ds and so wish i could have given him some siblings.

It's a sensitive thread and you chose to wade in with your post MadamD.

If you were sorry you wouldn't have posted.

I don't care how Soup chose to express what she was feeling, I knew what she meant and so did other posters.

No need.

So word usage aside after I spot your grammar.
Hehe, I'm kidding. Sort of.

sorry. that sounds weird. misread thread completely. i hought it was about having a third child. so yes, my comment was unkind and inappropriate. please accept my apologies.

I do have to ask what about siblings has to do with my post. I'm struggling to have 1. I might never have that.
I can't feel bad for you in a way. Hugs though x

Madame, no matter.
I x posted. It can't be nice for you, secondary infertilty is a hard from what I see. X

Agent. you are quite right. i feel really bad. sorry soup. you didnt need my nonsense. i am so sorry.

This makes me chuckle. It's really not a problem. I have a few big ones, it pales.
What can't you have another child?
You mention it so I ask .... I don't mind

Now I feel bad

I worried about DD1 being an only even though we'd 'chosen' for it not to be so, there are benefits to both sides of the coin is all I can say

Fwiw my mum only wanted 1 .... I'd have loved to be an oly! I was the first.
I'm 30 and I told asked my mum if I was the pfb.
She said I was and soooooo much more

And still am I should have said