On-going situation, here is a previous thread www.mumsnet.com/Talk/am_i_being_unreasonabl e/1114037-I-do-not-know-what-to-do-here
Since then, have spoken to DH, opened the thread for him to see, and told him, Im deadly serious about considering divorce.He said he understands, and would read thread.
I went upstairs to give him time to read thread about 10.30ish, read amg and feel asleep waiting for him. Though I did hear him coming into bedroom and getting into bed about 1am ish.
This happened Saturday night, his mum come to visit Sunday [she lives 100 miles away], so could not talk then, but she left 6.30pm, and since then he has not even mentioned it at all
He went back to work from Christmas today, he has come home stuffed his face with food I cooked for him, helped put DCs to bed [back in school tomorrow] Now he has gone upstairs to listen to footie on the radio
AIBU to tell him tonight, we either sort this out tonight, which involves him talking it through, or he should not come back from work tomorrow. Its so frustrating, and is really getting me down now
I feel as if I going to extremes, with this idea, its completely out of character for me to be so nasty, [am aware telling do not bother coming back is nasty], but I can not cope anymore. I really do not think I can live like this another minute, its come to the point of me seeing images of me ripping handfuls of hair out of my head, have even imagined, him walking into house and me being in livingroom covered in blood wrists slashed[ would never do it, but just the shock might make him realise what this is doing to me]
For him to know how much this is hurting me, the very fact he has ignored it, [always listens to me though, but never says what he wants], has made me come to the conclusion, that he could not give a fook whats happens, or how sad I am.
He knows Ive been sad about this for months, not just the issue of lack of affection, the very fact he does not care about me enough to even be honest.
Its like he has kept me hanging on a thread for almost a year, knowing it is hurting me
Rabbling now sorry, do not even know if any of this makes sense
AIBU?
to tell Dh if nothing is sorted, not to bother coming home from work tomorrow?
welshbyrd · 04/01/2011 21:07
Spoke to him last night, well actually I shouted 
, he did talk after being prompted, me asking him direct questions and him replying.
Told him how frustrating this has been to me, I really let rip.
He does love me, and he still wants to stay in a relationship. Worked out between us, that since DD 20months was born, tiredness, exhaustion [have to say DD, really has been hard work from day one, not sleeping all night until about a month ago,her behaviour in public places, meant we could not go anywhere etc]
Thankfully since xmas, she seems to have turned a corner, and has been an absolute little gem, since talking more. Did worry, it was because DH was on xmas hols from work, and when he returned, she would go back to her previous behaviour, well its day 4 of DH being back in work, and she really has been fab. Took her to a softball play yesterday, she was brill, confidant to approach other children, and overall fantastic
Think when a relationship has taken a back seat for such a long time due to exhaustion etc, it was hard to get back into it
He cwtched me all night, I felt warm, safe and feel almost stupid typing this, but minute by minute, I felt that all this stress, anger, loneliness was disappearing
Thanks all that replied, think you gave me the big kick up the bum, I needed, to get this sorted, and be courageous enough to push the subject, even though I knew there was a chance of him wanting to split
Nothing nicer than a catch - and that's from one Welsh burd to another 
Counselling is the way - I think it refreshed the issues for me and my dh, when he saw other person nodding in agreement with me, and the other way round, he realized it wasn't mindless nagging, and that I was deadly serious about needing things to get better.
The biggest mover for him was when I burst into tears in front of the counsellor, I don't do that very often so he knew things were pretty bad.
Not wanting to sound Stepford in anyway, but I wasn't actually looking my most attractive when we had problems and neither was he - we had stopped fancying each other and didn't feel that fanciable either IYKWIM. We try and make more of an effort these days - although it felt a bit fake, I do fancy him more when he shaves, cuts his tufty hair and whacks on a bit of smelly....however shallow that may sound. 
Binfull - agreed nothing like a good cwtch
Have been thinking this morning, about how much I have let myself go, my confidence hit so low, that brushing my hair in the morning was a chore. Decided this morning, that when DD goes for her nap, I would make myself look a bit more presentable, and put on my tights and boots he used to often compliment me on. Might even cook him his favourite, good old sausage casserole
Will bring other 2DCs to DS swimming lesson this evening too.DH and I, were up so late last night talking, he had work early this morning, so he is probably knackered, and would appreciate an hours peace
Thank you 
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