to shut myself in bedroom?

[roslily]

because I have.

I am fed up. Had a lovely christmas with family, had lots of rest. Back down to earth at home, back to getting up at 5.30am etc. Ds is 16months and I am just fed up. I am tired all the time, and haven't felt much like playing with him last few days.

He had a late nap and I went to bed. Dh got in and left me. when I just got up he had had something to eat as "didn't think I was going to get up to cook.

I feel like a total failure, all I want to do is lie in bed, not look after my son. I am on medication for mental health issues, so don't think it is that, just think I am lazy.

So I have left dh in charge and come back to bed, I'm awful aren't I?

[Tee2072]

Your meds might need adjusting. I would call your GP.

[ashamedandconfused]

no you aren't awful we all need to do that sometimes!

christmas is stressful and tiring, even if enjoyed, baby is also both, grey dank cold weather is miserable too - it all adds up

don't beat yourself up, have a sleep and you might feel better tomorrow - if you can get out for some fresh air and a walk it will probably help

[TheVisitor]

It wouldn't have killed your other half to cook dinner for you and the baby too. It does sound like your meds aren't working yet though, as excessive tiredness and feeling like a failure are part and parcel of depression. xxx

[mutznutz]

What's wrong with your Husband cooking himself something to eat and playing with your child while you have a sleep? My Husband does that a lot...and so do I if he happens to be the tired one.

Chill out and enjoy!

[FabbyChic]

SOunds like your depression is taking a toll.

If it continues you should see your doctor to see if your meds need upping to compensate for your deflated mood and apathy.

Try not to feel so bad. Have some you time and concentrate on positives x

[Ditablue]

Oh OP sounds like me - felt very much the same way over Christmas - when DH was at work all I wanted to do was stay in bed and not play with 14 month old DD. Am also 11 weeks pregnant which I'm happy about but I think it's taking it's toll with the constant sickness. Try not to be too hard on yourself - your DH is there to look after your LO as well and if you need time to yourself take it!! Guilt is a wasted emotion....take care of yourself.

[welshbyrd]

I feel like this, and Im not on any meds
Could be just one of those days
Agree with other poster who suggest you DH is a bit of a git, making himself food, and none else

[oftenpurple]

I agree with PPs - it is worthwhile talking to your GP about your meds.

Remember that the big build up to Christmas often leads to a big feeling of deflation as soon as the main event is over. I've been feeling a bit like that too - stressed, tired and down. A walk in the fresh air today and a bit of clearing out this morning have really helped.

[roslily]

Thanks. Yes I think it is a bit of a come down from Christmas. We live away from family, so I do all the getting up and stuff and don't get much of break. Then over Christmas had a lovely break and selfishly I don't want to be back to normal.

As to my mental health, I have Bipolar. I will talk to doc about meds. I just think I need more sleep. But then sometimes I think that other people manage and maybe I am just lazy.