missing my miracle

[OurMiracle1106]

I am very split about the next few days. On one level it kills me that my gorgeous little boy isn't going to be with me on his birthday. (2nd one without him) on the other I know they will celebrate and spoil him and I want him to have the best birthday possible. It's just hard. It feels like a massive part of me is missing.

It's his birthday tomorrow. And the adoption order anniversary in 6 days. He will have been legally their child a year when that comes round although he has Been theirs since he was placed with them as far as I am concerned.

Its just really hard. I am so glad he has parents that love him and can and will provide everything he needs,but that doesn't mean that I don't hurt.

I think it's just going to be a hard week. I cremated my mum two years ago today. And I am missing her too.

Mummys little miracle, both your mummys love you xx

[LastingLight]

(((HUGS)))

[wonderpants]

Happy birthday Little Miracle, and warm hugs to you OP. You are amazing! Hope you are able to celebrate in your own way tomorrow. You are a very brave lady, I have a lot of admiration for your dignity and compassion for your son and his family!

[Kewcumber]

Oh Lordy thats a bit of a triple whammy for you around now, isn't it. Any one of those things would be hard to deal with, all together must feel like you're being battered.

I hope you get through this time the best that you can.

Kew xxx

[anxious123]

Having just had to deal with my sons birthday who has been placed for adoption, I sympathise. Pm me if you want to talk. Take care and look after you xxxx

[Devora]

OurMiracle, your strength and grace in the midst of so much pain is quite extraordinary. Happy birthday to your beautiful son, and I hope you will special take care of yourself on the day.

[Velvet1973]

There aren't the words Miracle. Echo the others though, you never cease to humble me with your posts. Full of admiration for your strength and love for your lo. Take care of yourself.

[Italiangreyhound]

Thinking of you miracle. Can you do something meaningful for you? Could you dedicate a tree or something and visit it around his birthday? Just something to help you feel connected.

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