My DD looked grim in the photographs and in real life She was unkempt and snotty and looked a mess - She only needed caring for and she changed totally. She was dressed in scruffy clothes It didnt take long for her appearance to change- regular baths, a proper skin care routine, real food and nurture It was all part of the 'claiming' each other I can honestly say now that i love her as much as my BC- it a good job because she has put us through some tough times!!!
Scary would be the main thing I felt. I was terrified I would drop him for starters, and fail him in the long term.
Also for me I had great doubts as to whether I would be a good mother. Not helped by the number of "maybe this is God's will/fate/whatever that you don't have children naturally" comments I had got over the years. As though I wasn't meant to be a mum in some way.
A bit like when I passed my driving test and drove on my own for the first time. Don't be surprised if you keep waking up in the night, wondering if it really happened, wandering into their room to just look at them.
After so long waiting for it to happen, it did feel quite unbelievable at times that it had actually happened, and that she was home.