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- keep having dream where am driving and can't get foot to brake and slide out slowly onto busy road and have to watch self causing crash in slow motion through windscreen. Every time, in the dream, I think "and dammit this one isn't a dream, I knew it would really happen one day!" It haunts me in waking hours now.

- DP thinks I don't eat properly. It is ruining our time together. I eat in the day and not in the evening. He badgers me all night about what I am going to eat and I get pissed off and go to bed. I miss him. He doesn't seem to like me much at the moment.

- CM fees. Slighjtly snippy email from CM.

- work presentation I have to do tomorrow.

- the future. Not spending enough time with dcs. Being at work all the time. Being knackered and burnt out.

- my mum and dad getting old

- where we will live when we get kicked out of our rented house (soon)

that's better.

What about you lot?

If ex-DP is going to let me buy him out of the house I live in.

If I'm ever going to get an interview that will give me hope of leaving my whiny spoilt colleagues behind

If I'm ever going to lose this extra 2 stone so I can be a beautiful bridesmaid this year

If DS is ever going to finish a meal instead of throwing it on the floor

If my piles will ever go away

If we can ever get this sodding house on the market and back into civilisation.

How I can earn more money without giving up what I do best.

I have a similar dream OP, except mine is that I'm sitting in the rear seat trying to drive but can't reach the gears, pedals to slow down.

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If my 6 month old will ever sleep for more than an hour in a row at night - so far this has never happened.

Wondering when my 3 year old will start sleeping through the night again and stop having nightmares/separation anxiety.

If my anal fissure will heal itself before my surgery date comes up, please God!

If I'll be able to get childcare sorted for when I start back to work in April.

Had an interview at uni yesterday, can barely wait to hear.

DP played his last ever in a rugby match on Saturday and got his hand stamped on and it is broken. I am not a qualified driver, he cannot drive, I have to drive with him witting next to me ande may have to have an op, loads of time off work, so skint. All because of a stupid game that he insists on playing at 48 years old.

Because of DPs injury, he is in pain and unable to help much with anything. He usually does so much!!

If I'm going to get this job I'm waiting to hear about?

If I'm going to be unemployed for much longer?

If I can make Jobseekers stretch this week?

If I'm going to be expected to become in the upcoming years my mum's carer?

If I'll ever lose this stone I've put on sat on my fat unemployed arse?

Why my period is 2 days late? (couldn't poss be pregnant!)

If my car will pass it's mot on on Wednesday so that I can ferry my visitors about, and just how much it'll cost to pass the bloody thing?

If my tonsillitis will be cleared up for mother's day meal at mums?

If my dc will ever learn to stand up to the bullies in our street AND if she will learn to look before she flies across the street on her bike (before she gets knocked down that is) fyi, it's just at a dead-end, people are driving up to park etc etc

if I will ever manage to change my eating to lose the 3 stone I need to
if I will ever start liking actual job and not get 'found out' for being crap at it
if I will ever find a pair of jeans that fit well
if I will ever find the perfect foundation
if I will ever stop drinking too much
If I will ever stop worrying about my Mum getting older
If I will ever stop feeling guilty for living so far away from home town and not being there when I want be / should be
if I will ever get off MN and go and sort out tea

I have a similar dream OP, except mine is that I'm sitting in the rear seat trying to drive but can't reach the gears, pedals to slow down. Oh my god I have had that exact same dream

if the tenner left in my purse will last until next week

if we will ever get out of this hellhole of a house we live in

if.myself or dp will ever get a job again

if dd1 is going to be ok to.go to school in morning (she was sick in the night and school have a 24hr rule) she's been fine all day.but is now sat.with the sick bucket

if we will afford to replace the washer when it dies (bearings going and it makes a god awful screaching noise spinning) without using brighthouse

We are moving to the other end of the country in a month is has all been a bit sudden so here goes
If we will be able to rehome the cat without using a adoption center
if we will be able to get down there without me having a panic attack
how on earth we are going to get packed up in time
How can i help my middle ds who is both sad and angry about the move
If this is what i really want as I am not with it due to meds for anxiety
If we are making a huge mistake
If i will be able to homeschool properly whilst we sort out accomodation and schools so they don't fall behind
If i will find schools i like for them to go too

Work. They are trying to make me go back full time. Don't want to.

Dd1. She is just very trying at the moment, selfish, spoiled and bad tempered, where has my lovely little girl gone.

We are arguing a lot.

I had a letter from my gp today which is playing on my mind as well.

Will I ever get rid of this anxiety?
Am I a good mum?

Will I even get offered a job so fed up of applying and getting a few interviews but never get the job. Finding it very depressing.

Anxious about silly things.

Is this inflamed area on my cheek skin cancer?

Should I go and see sally morgan the psycic at her london show or is it just a waste of money? As I miss my parents and want to know if they happy.

DD-Is she eating or has she started her stupid diet again.

DS-Will his boss be an utter Dick now he's handed his notice in. There is only so much crap that DS will take before he walks out.

Me-Is the feeling of blocked sinuses a sign that my tumour is back.

Last night I had a dream, where I was in a cafe, reading the paper, and couldn't find my horoscope. All the other ones were there, but not mine. I went to ask a man at the next table for help, but he didn't notice me.
I went outside, and DH was there, with my horse. She was acting up, and I was telling him to hold the halter as well as her lead, but he couldn't hear me either.
I woke up devastated, because I just knew that I must have been a ghost.

I am currently waiting for a biopsy at the end of the month, to find out if I have lymphoma.

I have just started mat leave this morning, how can I make the massively reduced money last.

Will I ever shift the baby weight.

I need to get a new car before the baby arrives as I can't fit 3 seats across the back of mine.

Dh's car is fucked and will cost more to pass mot this month than the cars worth.

Will DS be dx with ADHD. Will his lovely indie school kick him out when the other parents worry he's too much of a distraction.

Will I lose hours at work which will mean I can't afford to get some extra tutor time for DS to help him catch up on his writing skill.

Will I even have a job after Thursday when we have to reapply for our jobs.

On the plus side I was in a slo-mo near miss accident today. How the guy that was wrongly pulling out missed me I will never know. I do know that I actually said "fucking hell" out loud, and was thinking if this is the one, his little hot hatch is no match fr my fuck off 4x4.

Every cloud

I started reading this thinking about my niggles and what I would write, but My Good God!

Some of you have such weights on your minds.

My heart goes out to every one who has posted on this thread (assuming no hairy hands have popped up while I have been clumsily typing) and I hope things will turn out much better than you fear.

Main worry: Why does the GP want to re-do my blood-tests? Am I anemic? Is it my thyroid? ....I feel like I'm too young to have a thyroid! <panic> <panic> <fret> When will I even get an appointment with their silly phone at 8am when I'm at work system.

More long term worries:

AAAAAAAAAAAAH! MA DISSERTATION! AAAAAAAAAH!
*what's a coefficient?
*why am I even bothering with statistics I hate excel?

What if I'm too thick to do a PhD? What if 'they' (lecturers, potential supervisors) all laugh at my plan?

What if I do a PhD and then we are poor for 3-5 more years and can't have babies?

(I'm a worrier by nature just in case you can't tell!)

good luck everyone, hope it helps to write it down

Please let the scan show something unimportant and not something scary.

-let my depression clear up
-let dd realise her boyfriend will be ok (14yrs old but certainly the ones for eachother looking at then!) He's having a growth from his stomach and part of his intestine out and noone knows what it is.

Drafted ipod. His growths more likely than not cancer.
-pay the vets bill

I am a horrible mum and too shouty

My Dh is starting to take me and the kids for granted and I NEVER thought that would happen

The housework is right on top of me and I can't take it.

Will my dad make through another round of chemo. Will my mum stop drinking so much alcohol.

Uuuuugh....

holding virtual hands with you all, wishing everyone love and luck

Should I speak to dds friend's mum and risk a big row or just leave it? I hate confrontation.

Has dhs op really been successful this time? Can't quite bring myself to hope that he might actually be getting better after 2 years of pain but it's starting to look like he could be.

Is it really going to be possible to pay off £10k worth of debt without adding it to the mortgage? And without making it any bigger?

Should I ask to stay full-time at work? It's meant to be temporary but the money is v handy (for paying off debt) & the only thing really suffering is the housework.