Im struggling today

Hi Julezboo, I'm having a pretty awful day too... You're not alone.

hi charliesmum

my mc was beg of feb, been in hospital again today and got more antibiotics for my 4th infection since ERPC on 31st march and Im still bleeding. Im emotionally drained and eshausted with it all

bloody hell julez

((hug))

have they given you any idea why it has taken so long to clear the infection?

i have a strange mass in my uterus wall they dont know what it is, chemo and hysterectomy are being talked about.

Held it together till today, was at the hospital waiting round with ds2 (whos ill too) from 10am till 6pm...its just silly

don't know you and can't help but just wanted to add some {{{hugs}} for such a traumatic time.

have your hcg levels come down?

have they mentioed methotraxate?

it is a type of chemo they use for eps

but they also use it (unlisenced) for remaining 'products' (hate that word)

i had it after mc no 2 cause the 'products' decided to start multiplying again causing my hcg to start rising again,

trophoblastic (sp) tissue growth

no they thought it was molar or trophoblastic tissue but my HCG was 6 last check urine was clear today of HCG too, all the pregnancy products have gone Histology report said it was twins...

Mass they have no clue what it is i have a MRI booked for 29th

You poor thing Julez, what a lot to deal with. No wonder you are finding it tough. I really hope that things start looking up for you soon - a mc is traumatic enough without having to cope with anything on top of it. I don't have any advice (only had ERPC y'day) but I'm thinking of you...

so sorry about your mc too charlies, its a horrible thing to go through

is it possible that now your hcg is only 6 it may get better,

i cant believe they have left you this long without offering methotraxate,

i was about 12 weeks from start to finish and that was more than enough for me,

my 'products' were so small they couldnt see them on a scan and they were quite confused by the up and down levels,

methotraxate was the only way forward,

it was not as bad as i thought it would be (the metho, not the experience of mc)

sending you love ---> X

hcg was 6 3 weeks ago now

the mass is 5cm wide and ive also gained a 6cm cyst on my ovary which is quite painful, DS2 has chicken pox, ds1 has an ear infection...

oh julez, im sorry, have only just seen this x

I haven't seen your other posts, but I am sorry to hear what you are going through. I always felt thatthe physical recovery had to be complete before I could get on with the emotional recovery, and these problems just spin it all out.

Can I say 'well done' to you for dealing with so much at once. Even strong people have bad days, but I am hoping for some answers and an end to this for you soon.

Thanks all...

No better today, DP seems to make me feel worse which is sad isnt it ?

Im gonna take my boys out for the day today get out of the house in the sun

i dont blame you. recurrent mc is v tough on relationships, i know i blame myself and become paranoid the dh blames me too.

DP has moved on from mc now... its his attitude it stinks to high heaven, so fed up of it all...

better go get the boys ready xx

thats crap, you need all the support you can get right now!